(Part 3)
Since then I have observed all sorts of "leading by the spirit" in our Church I question greatly. The most recent example of this where 4 pastors plus other men with great faith (who I believe are all genuine in their
belief) - claimed they have heard from The Holy Spirit something that is irreconcilable with each other. (All 4 pastors claimed that God said they where to be the new senior pastor and the others not, and these had other "men of God", elders, external pastors, etc sided with them).
So here I was observing a church that practiced in the spritual realm all the time, allows so much to be said such as "Thus says the Lord", ignoring when things didn't line up with what they claimed, all they heard from God and that the other parties are wrong. (Needless to say it's left a mess behind too - but like usual - people aren't asking the big question - they're ignoring and moving on).
And through all this - a church with claims to be switched on spiritually, and in tune with God's Holy Spirit - ignoring probably one of the most fundamental aspects of the spiritual realm - which is to test the spirits according to 1 John 4.

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I had to ask the shocking question:
What spirit are these well intentioned pastors really hearing from? All 4 of them can't be hearing the truth.
I realised why I struggled so much in this church. That I think my faith is of the opposite spectrum from theirs. Theirs is based on what they hear in the spirit and their conscious and conviction agrees with - which they then turn to find scriptures to complement, ignoring other scriptures that don't. Mine I believe comes from reading the scriptures and asking the Holy Spirit to give me His revelation of those scriptures in it's full context.
As a result - I do not put trust in my logic. I cry out to God often to lead me and guide me, and to use His rod to correct me - because I know I will fail if I lean on my own feelings, or even my own logic. I know I will go astray. I know I'm going to get it wrong. I beg him to guide me and if needed - strike me with that rod that I may stay on the narrow path. I am at the complete mercy of Him revealing truth to me, and His rod and staff truly comfort me - knowing that he will answer my prayer and do whatever is necessary to make sure I am in The Way.
How does all this relate to our conversation then? Well, firstly - in regards to the whole Hell thing - I personally don't like the word Hell. I believe it's confusing and a mis-representation of what the scriptures talk about. Scripture talks about Hades (being temporary), and then the lake of fire - which are two separate places which Hades is cast into. Whereas most people take the 'traditional' approach and only refer to people going to hell when they die - forever. But you can't throw hell into hell.
For me with my current studies, I can only find 4 conclusions to what I have read for the unrepentant sinner:
1) Sinners go to Hades where they
suffer in tournament until the day of judgement, and then are cast into the lake of fire where they
suffer eternally.
2) Sinners go to Hades where they
suffer in tournament until the day of judgement, and then are cast into the lake of fire where they are
annihilated.
3) Sinners go to Hades where they
sleep until the day of judgement, and then are cast into the lake of fire where they
suffer eternally.
4) Sinners go to Hades where they
sleep until the day of judgement, and then are cast into the lake of fire where they are
annihilated.
I know that the strong traditional approach for this (and by many it's called heresy if it's not proclaimed) is #1. I'm a little more open, and being honest "I don't know". It seems strange that Hades and the Lake of Fire are exactly the same experience - why would Hades need to be thrown into the lake of fire (or hell into hell). But I also understand that is my logic - and I do not trust my own logic. But the scripture as I read it supports sinners ending up in the lake of fire which is permanent.
But that's really a secondary issue to me - the thing that concerns me the most throughout all this is that their are other spirits, and Satan himself is known as an angel of light. I see many people claim they have direct revelation from God on an issue that absolutely differs with someone else to the point that I strongly believe that Satan is currently deceiving many believers by deceiving them into believing that his voice is that of God's.
So many people, all convinced that God has spoken to them and all others are wrong... all being lead by..... who? It's a terrifying thought. Further more I am seeing more and more different 'gospel messages' being proclaimed - all by people who have 'heard from God' on the issue. Apparently Christians have had it wrong for nearly 2,000 years and a select few are the enlightened ones now with the truth. This has alarm bells ringing in my head in a big way - especially because I know there can only be one gospel message, and all others lead to damnation.
The only solution that I can see from this is not our feelings, or our convictions - but whether or not our conscious, or the voice we hear lines up with scripture absolutely. It is our duty as Christians to apply 1 John 4 to every voice we hear.