Need to Endure but it's agony

[Wynona]

Then relax and do not worry about it. Sure things might be lean at the moment but God's kids do not go running in the street begging for bread.
You just be you...doing what you can. Taking advantage of opportunities as they come along to earn what you can.

The whole world is suffering from economic hardships at the moment but we are getting by. The nice things are ok....and we are accustomed to having them but they aren't necessities.

And continue to be generous with what you do have. Set aside a portion before you make out the bills. (Firstfruits)

I worked in construction for years as an electrician...meaning I got fired a LOT because when projects get finished I would get fired afterwards. Then there would be times that there were periods of no work at all. And when I'd get another job finally I'd take that first check and give it straight to God. It was usually just a partial check and not a full one...and where things were getting really tight....I still knew more was coming so I gave it as a first fruits offering. Because I believed God would provide. Because God has always provided. I'm still alive...still kicking and causing trouble...
What I'm trying to say is that circumstances shouldn't change who we are. When we feel like being greedy or tight fisted do not forget who you are...we, our communities, and others need our beacon of LIGHT in this dark world...a shelter in the storm.
I'm not saying you should give everything away and live as a homeless person....far from it. Or cripple your household finances to a point of ruin by not working and hanging out at church or soup kitchens....because you need to be the missionary and not the mission field.
You need to work for God and not force God to provide freebies for you.

Youre right. We have always had what we needed. And even now its best to not be stingy.

 

[amadeus]

Sometimes I get so tired of the steady stream of stress and trials, I would even take something extra bad happening just to have a change from this uncertain period.

Im just stuck and almost everything nice, comfortable, fun, or convenient is out of reach.

I'm stuck placed right above the flames and God clearly wants me to stay there. I trust God. He's worth the grilling. But it's really painful and hard to endure. I need prayer to keep trusting God. To keep enduring.

I know the cross is heavy. Pray that I don't drop it and run away to a more comfortable spot.

When came the morning to Jesus?

Ps 30:5

For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

When will your joy in the morning arrive?
Perhaps for Jesus he first had to drink the cup which his Father gave to him...

Mt 26:39

And he went a little farther, and fell on his face, and prayed, saying, O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.

Must we then first like Jesus drink the cup which the Father has set before us?
And have the strength to so proceed and to endure in the interim and to the end of our course?

Ps 18:2

The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.

Again Jesus offers to us the help needed, the strength...

Mt 11:28

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

 

[Wynona]

When I fully invested in my marriage and surrendered to God fully, life got easier. But that allowed us to advance and now God has more for us to do.

The temptation is to backtrack for easier times. But I declare by faith that I will move forward in Jesus' name. I hear the devil's call to give up the fight and I will never bow to him.

 

[Wynona]

I know God's will. Will I do it or seek refuge in self pity and keep thinking like a victim of hardship when God is calling me higher?

I think its been agony because I like having self pity and misery to fall back on.

I repent. I need to keep my eyes on Christ at all times. Or the enemy will keep exploiting this same weakness.