Okay. So, let's change descriptors (it's a better illustration for me on this point, and I do see it too, okay?)
So all this is like a well right? An unfathomably deep well full of nothing but God's glory and majesty.
It's not a ceasing of our own existence if we jump into this well, in fact it's nothing but Life and we are being called to enter in.
But the leap is terrifying all the same. So we inch in... The more we understand the more we trust the farther we go.
Right?
But you know when you jump in your coming out just like the Apostle Paul, and that's scary.
Let's face it Paul was the crazy man in the public square talking about putting on Christ like clothing... Jesus Christ, a human being in the eyes of the world that many had seen as a living man at the time.
It's bad enough that we can understand Paul as if he was our own brother, raised in the same household but to come out of the well like that?
It's not an inviting prospect really, no one actually wants to be the crazy man in the public square..
And then look at the venom spewed just at this, tell them God is sovereign and they flip.. they can handle anything but that. They hate God because they don't have control over Him.
And we aren't that different really... it is as terrifying as it is wonderous to fully surrender self.
So we inch ourself in, the more we understand of God the more we trust Him and so the farther we go into that well which is the Glory of God.
We won't loose ourselves when we jump entirely in, but we aren't coming out of it the same. We will be exactly like Paul.
God asks us to take the leap, but he gives us the time we need to be able to do that comfortably I think...hence, clothing descriptors.
At any rate, I've already jumped... So have you. . Whether we realize it yet or not.
But In that well only God operates, I agree, and when we jump, only God matters to us. There it is totally only God in us, through us, and for the praise of His Glory.
Is this where you are thinking?