But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31
This verse is near and dear to me as this is part of my calling to serve the LORD, but what struck me today is the "wait upon the LORD" thing. Sometimes we want to rush into our calling, force our way in, instead of waiting upon the LORD to place us where we belong.
For example, I Know that part of my calling is to write a book, I have tried to begin writing this book to no avail as the Spirit has yet to lead me to that point, perhaps my understanding is not complete, Perhaps the time is not yet for such a book, perhaps He just needs to finish some work in me that will allow me to write that book? So I wait upon the LORD to direct me and lead me in this regard.
The same is true of my relationships. Since my divorce I know I have been praying for a woman to love. I Know I have tried to ask a few ladies out, but to no avail, But I Know the LORD has the right person out there for me, that he is waiting to develop this Love in His time, not my time.
Learning to wait upon the LORD is an act of faith we can live by everyday which teaches us to release our anxiety of the present and lean on our hope in the future providence of the LORD. When we wait on Him He will lift us up and let us soar like the eagles.
For encouragement for anyone feeling anxious about their situation. Myself included.
God Bless
I'm sorry to hear of your troubles, David. I pray that you will find comfort and mercy from our Heavenly Father and that he will give you peace in your days here in this foreign land. "Wait on the Lord" reminds me of one of my favorite psalms, the 25th. (v5-6) "Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me. For you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long".
I had most of this psalm printed on the funeral card for my husband (instead of Psalm 23, the one that's commonly there). When you don't get answers from the Lord and he leaves you in a place where you're wondering what happened to your life and what you're doing here still, it is very difficult. The love of my life was taken from me unexpectedly a few Christmas Eves ago and it's been such a difficult time ever since. Every day I have been waiting on the Lord. It's all I can do.
Personally I don't feel like I'll ever be married again; the relationship I had was just too perfect. Those shoes are just too big to be filled. For a couple of months I dated a neighbor with whom I felt a spark and is he really an amazing person. I mean definitely not to say he doesn't have flaws but wow does he know how to treat a lady. Would do anything for me if I asked him to. His two adult daughters (I think I'm closer in age to them than to him so they very well could have been like, "Uh, Dad---uh no." But the one was like, "My dad is a grown-a** man and he can do what he likes". ), his mother and grandchildren liked me too.
I just had to break it off though. Right before I ended it I had a absolutely crushing bout of depression. And I realized it was just how extremely different I felt dating him and when I met my husband. I just couldn't take it. I started getting like excessively annoyed by some things about my neighbor. Things I could deal with in a friend, but I just couldn't go on any longer in a romantic relationship. I was really hoping it would work out, but unfortunately, it didn't. At least we're still friends. But I'm like, if that wouldn't work out where things were like really just right--and his religious beliefs are very similar; we differ a little but my husband and I did too--then I don't think anything will.
But God can do all things. The most important words ever spoken by the Holy Spirit: "But God..." Man is sinful beyond all hope. But God... With man it is impossible. But God... It is truly such an amazing thing to have been blessed with the gift of faith. To know the power of the Living God. To have hope in a desperately hopeless world. God may give us a hard providence as he had given me. But God has spoken in his word. He will bring us into a new heaven and a new earth where we will dwell with him in bliss forever. His word promises us this. And that is a sure thing to stand on. The promises of God are worth every hardship in this life. These momentary afflictions cannot be compared to the glory that awaits. I can never remember the verse. Actually a friend and I looked it up and I think it's a conflation of two verses from Romans and one of the Corinthians. Do we accept good from the Lord but not affliction? The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away; blessed be the name of the Lord. And my favorite one from Job, "Though he slay me, yet will I trust him." Our lives are so very brief. Our Heavenly Father has promised us eternal happiness in dwelling with Him. This is the Living Hope which makes difficulties in life bearable.