Though this is a far late reply, I still read the OP and the bulk of the handful of comments. Either you’re left the forum or stuck with atheism/agnostic.
I was raised up predominantly in Christianity and a combination of Appalachian folk and indigenous beliefs. However, one thing my family had almost always been adamant about except for a few years, is that I am free to choose what I want. Now obviously I could not choose to engender myself significantly or anything wicked or criminal as kid. But I was free to be myself.
I’ve always been a big reader. Came in top three my entire life in school when it was about reading books and taking the tests on them. I have always been just as intrigued by nonfiction as fiction. In my family talk of science and faith went hand in hand. But it was compartmentalized. My questions of harmony was mostly swept under a rug as “it’s a mystery and we don’t know”.
Anyways jump past all of that. I don’t think there is any evidence for god or any supernatural being. Not anything concrete anyways. Definitely no evidence for intelligent design. Yet, I choose to have faith. You mentioned being worried about the right path… I think any path that is focused on love and justice is fulfilled by Christ. Omnism x Christianity. Zzzzz ablut to sleep. I’m waking up at 230am and it’s 740pm.