Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK

[Shattered]

For those who are interested in listening to the videos of survivor testimonies I've been posting, I found another one.

This is "Josh and Joe once again. I believe their stories are very relevant and important for today for a number of reasons ....watch and listen as you are led by the Lord. I am trusting that IF He impresses you to expose yourself to these testimonies, He will reveal and teach some valuable perspectives and insights into your own journey to freedom. Some of it could be triggering, so feel free to avoid them until the Spirit indicates His desire for you to watch them.

Now is not the time for me, brother. Soon.

 

[TLHKAJ]

Today is Mother's Day, an occult ritual date. Be prayerful, be aware, and take safety steps if you're a survivor.

 

[truthquest]

Welcome, Truthquest.

Thank you. I hope to be able to say something that will help survivors and offer support and encouragement.

 

[truthquest]

Jostler said: ↑
For those who are interested in listening to the videos of survivor testimonies I've been posting, I found another one.

That's a good video. Many Christians aren't aware of what takes place in some churches on certain days and at times that are not regularly scheduled church days. The rituals that take place open the door to demons in those churches. That's why it's so important for Christians to be aware of that and pray against it and for the protection of those who are victims especially children.

 

[truthquest]

Thank you posting here, @truthquest . I'm too horrified to share the identity of my primary handler, who was also my father's handler after his career transitioned into the scientific and technical aspects of the cult's work through the United States armed forces. This was when his presence in the home became a regular feature of life. No more mysterious disappearances for months at a stretch.

I understand why you would be too horrified to share the identity of your primary handler. I also know the danger in doing so.

My siblings are also survivors... everyone in my family are survivors... though it appears that my late father and I are the only ones who experienced the breaking of our programming to the degree we were both targeted for disposal. I was groomed and thus ordered to kill him (his usefulness expired) and when I failed to do that, he was subsequently ordered to kill me as a way of "redeeming" himself to our handler. We both refused and overcame the curse which afflicted the men (and some of the women) of his lineage for so very long. Like father like son, until Jesus Christ broke the chain and unraveled centuries of work devoted to preserving our bloodline.

There are many survivors who do remember with large families who are not able to remember what happened to them. It may be that only one member of the family is able to recover memories. The one member who does remember tries hard to help the other members of the family to remember but is unable to do that.

Yes, our bloodline was but one among many procured and preserved by a program of eugenics.

As for the fact that the cult didn't send a wet team to dispose of our entire family? I attribute this to the Lord's protection. He's the one who saved us, He's the one who delivered us, and His kindness toward a father and son is too wonderful for these feeble words. The deliverance of the Lord was complete in me, for the legacy of "like father, like son" ended in me. I've never fathered a child and never will. Praise the Lord!

Yes, it is generational.

 

[TLHKAJ]

There are many survivors who do remember with large families who are not able to remember what happened to them. It may be that only one member of the family is able to recover memories. The one member who does remember tries hard to help the other members of the family to remember but is unable to do that.

Yes, well said.
Personal example...
My younger brother who is in the military came to me with memories related to SRA back in about 1997. He was about 21yrs old. I was 25. I had no awareness of our family's SRA/MK history at that time. Shortly after his visit, I began being hit severely with electronic harassment (EMF and V2K). I know now that we both most likely were reported (to our handlers) by our own reporting alters. The electronic harassment was severe and served to keep me sleep deprived and in constant crisis (and therefore, keeping me dissociated) to prevent my own memories from surfacing...especially after my brother's visit and disclosure. That could have caused my memories to begin opening up. Instead, it would be about 6 more years before my memories began coming back after following the prompting of the Lord to begin journaling my history in 2003. When I began writing, that unlocked things. That's when I became aware that I had alters and then more memories of sexual abuse came....then SRA memories (2004) and after that, MK memories (2006).

 

[truthquest]

 

[truthquest]

 

[Hidden In Him]

My siblings are also survivors... everyone in my family are survivors... though it appears that my late father and I are the only ones who experienced the breaking of our programming to the degree we were both targeted for disposal. I was groomed and thus ordered to kill him (his usefulness expired) and when I failed to do that, he was subsequently ordered to kill me as a way of "redeeming" himself to our handler. We both refused and overcame the curse which afflicted the men (and some of the women) of his lineage for so very long. Like father like son, until Jesus Christ broke the chain and unraveled centuries of work devoted to preserving our bloodline.

Yes, our bloodline was but one among many procured and preserved by a program of eugenics.

As for the fact that the cult didn't send a wet team to dispose of our entire family? I attribute this to the Lord's protection. He's the one who saved us, He's the one who delivered us, and His kindness toward a father and son is too wonderful for these feeble words. The deliverance of the Lord was complete in me, for the legacy of "like father, like son" ended in me. I've never fathered a child and never will. Praise the Lord!

My goodness! What a powerful testimony.

I can't always keep up with threads like these because as I have told TLHKAJ, it weighs on my spirit too heavily sometimes if I meditate on it too much. I didn't come from an MK-Ultra/SRA background, I was simply made aware of the realities of it by the Lord in praying to understand the spiritual war going on in the earth for the souls of men.

But what comes as normal reading for those who have experienced these things first hand comes off to me as somewhat tough to handle in heavy doses. This testimony of yours is glorious, however. Welcome to Christianity Board, and I hope you stick around here for a long time to come. TLH and I agree that many soldiers in the end-time army of God will be coming out of mind-control and ritual abuse, so I am always glad to see people joining who have a deep and abiding thankfulness to God for all He has done for them in setting the captives free.

God bless,
Hidden In Him

 

[truthquest]

I actually believe some children weren't abused in my family. They were the favoured children and most likely to tell

They wouldn't be able to tell if they couldn't remember it. That is the way that trauma works. They prefer children who were already abused to be more open to DID, to have the ability to dissociate.

 

[truthquest]

Yes, well said.
Personal example...
My younger brother who is in the military came to me with memories related to SRA back in about 1997. He was about 21yrs old. I was 25. I had no awareness of our family's SRA/MK history at that time. Shortly after his visit, I began being hit severely with electronic harassment (EMF and V2K). I know now that we both most likely were reported (to our handlers) by our own reporting alters. The electronic harassment was severe and served to keep me sleep deprived and in constant crisis (and therefore, keeping me dissociated) to prevent my own memories from surfacing...especially after my brother's visit and disclosure. That could have caused my memories to begin opening up. Instead, it would be about 6 more years before my memories began coming back after following the prompting of the Lord to begin journaling my history in 2003. When I began writing, that unlocked things. That's when I became aware that I had alters and then more memories of sexual abuse came....then SRA memories (2004) and after that, MK memories (2006).

I am aware of reporting alters. All it takes in many cases is for a person to receive a phone call and then given a trigger word or phrase to report. The easiest way for them to trigger a person is by a phone call. That's why I said it is important to be on guard against phone calls. It can also happen, for instance, if a person is in a grocery store and someone walks by them and says trigger words. So it can happen pretty much anywhere.

A person can be hit with EMF and V2K at any time even while driving. Perhaps this would happen at a traffic light. The EMF can be severely painful to the point that a person has to pull over till the pain stops.

As a person becomes more aware of all this, they are better able to recognize warning signs and know how to be on guard and protect themselves.

 

[truthquest]

I would think abusing someone for a lifetime who didn't speak their first full sentence til they were 9 would be preferable.

I wouldn't disagree with that. They are certainly more at risk.

 

[truthquest]

Disabled children are more at risk.

Yes, they are.

 

[TLHKAJ]

I'm aggravated today.
It might be because it's mother's day in itself. I don't think it's a cult related trigger for me. As of now.

*hugs*
It can be a difficult day where abuse has been present, with or without the cult aspect.

 

[Shattered]

There are many reasons why I don't do holidays of any kind. I avoid them all.

 

[TLHKAJ]

I actually believe some children weren't abused in my family. They were the favoured children and most likely to tell

It's okay. You don't need to know that right now. The most important thing is that you move forward in your own healing. The rest will take care of itself.

But here's something to think about, sis...
The cult makes sure that children in a family are pitted against each other. One child may seem "preferred" over another...another more suppressed, belittled, shamed, etc ...and maybe another child is all but invisible, ignored, etc. Every survivor I've known who has siblings have had some variation of this in their family.

That's how it was in my family. My older sister was my dad's "favorite." I was my mom's "favorite." My baby brother had some times of being my mom's "favorite." But he was all but invisible to our dad unless he was being shamed and picked on when there was company around. But we all were abused. More of those details came out later in life.

 

[TLHKAJ]

*Hugs*
It has always been a day of upset in the house since my teens.

I had no clue of the way this day was used until 2009 when my children and I were assaulted (s*xually tortured) on Mother's Day, the two-year anniversary of my decision to pull out of a church that was pastored by a cult handler. (I wasn't aware that our church was a Christian front for the cult until 2007.)

 

[TLHKAJ]

Pitting children against each other, playing "favorites" actually makes denial much stronger among siblings. It ensures they don't communicate well with each other and one who is "favored" in their front life fights a lot of denial and will be all the more angry against the one/s who breaks silence about their abuse.

 

[TLHKAJ]

I think it was all abusive all around to some degree. That i agree with. If someone feels guilt cos they are treated as a confidant it's abuse . Witnessing abuse is abuse. Etc.

Although I was "hated" by my dad, he sexually used and abused me. I experienced many beatings as well. But my mom ....I used the word "favorite" but it was more like the word you used. I was her confidant, her scapegoat, the one she leaned on as if I was her strength.

My brother was more of the classic "favorite" by our mom.

But what I became aware of was that we all suffered abuse. My sister and I were groomed by our dad from toddlerhood to be used s*xually (by other adults).

 

[TLHKAJ]

I was left with him and my mom took my sister out every week.
When i got older I was almost stripped down until my sister walked in the room.

I'm so sorry, sis!! It sounds like your mom was compliant, and on some level, a participant. I wouldn't be surprised if your sister was abused in private as well. They played the charade very well.