If Jesus loved Judas as much as you claim he would have been forgiven the same way Peter was.
You forget that in order to be forgiven one has to
want to be forgiven, of their own free will. But, that has nothing to do with the ways in which Jesus loved Judas and why, and thus neither can Judas's unwillingness to be forgiven be used as evidence in support of your claim that the words in post #147 aren't Jesus's.
Regarding Peter, Judas, and forgiveness though, Jesus spoke about that on March 31st, 1944 to Maria Valtorta, after having shown her the scenes of Judas's betrayal up to his suicide: "
Remorse could have also saved him, if he had turned remorse into repentance. But he would not repent and, to the first crime of betrayal, still compatible because of the great mercy that is My loving weakness, he added blasphemy, resistance to the voices of Grace, that still wanted to speak to him through recollections, through terrors, through My Blood and My mantle, through My glances, through the traces of the institution of the Eucharist, through the words of My Mother.
He resisted everything. He wanted to resist. As he had wanted to betray. As he wanted to curse. As he wanted to commit suicide.
It is one's will that matters in things. Both in good and in evil. When one falls without the will to follow, I forgive.
Consider Peter. He denied Me. Why? Not even he knew why. Was Peter a coward? No. My Peter was not cowardly. Facing the cohort and the guards of the Temple he had dared to wound Malcus to defend Me, risking his own life thereby. He then ran away, without the will to do so. Then he denied Me, without the will to do it. Later he did remain and proceed on the bloody way of the Cross, on My Way, until he reached death on a cross. And then he bore witness to Me very efficiently, to the point of being killed because of his fearless faith.
I defend My Peter. His bewilderment was the last one of his human nature. But his spiritual will was not present at that moment. Dulled by the weight of his humanity, it was asleep. When it awoke, it did not want to remain in sin, but it wanted to be perfect. I forgave him at once.
Judas did not want. You say that he seemed mad and hydrophobic. He was so through satanic fury. His terror in seeing the dog, a rare animal particularly in Jerusalem, was a consequence of the fact that, from time immemorial, that form was attributed to Satan to appear to men. In books of magic it is stated that one of the forms preferred by Satan to appear to men is that of a mysterious dog or cat or billy-goat. Judas, already a prey to terror brought about by his crime, being convinced that he belonged to Satan because of his crime, saw Satan in that stray animal.
He who is guilty, sees shadows of fear in everything. It is his conscience that creates them. Then Satan instigates such shadows, which might still bring a heart to repent, and turns them into horrible ghosts that lead to despair.
And despair leads to the last crime: suicide. What is the use of throwing away the price of the betrayal,
when such deprivation is only the fruit of wrath and
is not corroborated by a righteous will of repentance? Only in such case the act of divesting oneself of the fruits of evil deeds becomes meritorious. But he did not do that. A useless sacrifice.
My Mother, and She was Grace that was speaking and My Treasurer that was granting forgiveness in My name, said to him: "Repent, Judas. He forgives..."
Oh! I would have forgiven him! If he had only thrown himself at the feet of My Mother saying: "Mercy! " She, the Merciful Mother, would have picked him up as a wounded man, and on his satanic wounds, through which the Enemy had imbued him with the Crime, She would have shed Her tears that save and She would have brought him to Me, to the foot of the Cross, holding him by the hand, so that Satan might not snatch him and the disciples might not strike him.
She would have brought him so that My Blood might fall first of all on him, the greatest of all sinners. And She would have been the admirable Priestess on Her altar, between Purity and Guilt, because She is the Mother of virgins and saints,
but She is also the Mother of sinners.
But he did not want. Meditate on the power of free will, of which you are the absolute arbiters.
Through it you can have Heaven or Hell. Meditate on what persisting in sin means. (
The Poem of the Man-God: Vol. V)
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On August 1st, 1943, Jesus dictated the following to Maria Valtorta: "When Judas no longer believed in Me, in the satisfaction of money, or in the protection of human law, he killed himself. Remorse over his crime? No. If it had been that, he would have killed himself immediately after grasping that I knew. But not then, not after the vile kiss and the loving greeting, not then, not when he saw Me spat upon, bound, dragged away amidst a thousand insults. Only after having understood that the law did not protect him—the poor human law, which often creates or provokes crime, but afterwards washes its hands of its executors or accomplices and, if need be, turns against them and, after having used them, strikes them dumb forever by eliminating them—and only after having understood that power and money were not forthcoming or were too base to produce happiness, only then did he kill himself. He was in the darkness of nothingness. He cast himself into the darkness of hell." (
The Notebooks: 1943)
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On March 30th, 1949, Jesus dictated the following to Maria Valtorta: “[…] for Judas was bold in his crime and, though knowing he was revealing himself in his full horror and branding himself forever with the world’s disdain as long as the world existed, he defied everything and came, in the presence of a people whose reactions he did not know, to point Me out to the assassins. He professed himself to be my disciple by that act and did not deny it; he was and wanted to be known as the ‘betrayer’ and the ‘deicide.’”
“In reality, the thirty coins were the heavy stone which Judas tied around his neck to plunge into the abyss, and the mad hope of triumphing in just any way—after he had been unable to be the ‘great one’ of Christ, King of Israel—was the rope which made him a suicide, deprived of Life and life eternally dead, dead, dead; eternally satan, satan, satan. The second Lucifer for God the Son as the first Lucifer was such for God the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, both of them rebels, proud, and greedy and both of them struck down—the Archangel and the Apostle—by Divine Justice.”
“As Judas, to get a justification for his iniquitous action, by every means sought to make Me appear as a sinner, in such a way that he would appear as a just man tormentedly acting against his friend to give honor to God, to persuade the uncertain that I was a false Christ, and to fortify the adversaries, in order to crown his mad dream.”
“The third great, mysterious, and inexplicable defection is that of Judas Iscariot, who spontaneously wanted to belong to Christ, who enjoyed his love for three years and fed on his Word, and who, because he was disappointed in his concupiscent dreams, sold Him for thirty denarii, changing from an apostle—that is, chosen for the highest spiritual dignity—into the betrayer of the Friend, the deicide and suicide.” (
The Notebooks: 1945-1950, pp. 483-520;572-609)
You answered your own question.
I'm asking if you agree which requires a yes or no. So, again, is it more wearisome to perform an action demanding continuous effort which we know beforehand will be futile or to perform another which, instead of effort, involves joy and repose in carrying it out?
The former, isn't it? And who will have more merit? The one carrying out the former or the latter? In the former case, where the sole purpose is to do one's full duty with no hope of receiving compensation, or in the latter, where minute by minute we are amply repaid for what we are doing? Whoever carries out the former act will have more merit.
Isn't that true?
