Hey peeps,
Please pray for my soul...
I am struggling with lust for a someone and its overwhelming. please dont judge me, I am already feeling raw and helpless...
I am not in any relationship with this man, we do not contact each other, but I had been having sexual dreams and I have at least stopped dreaming now, and actively shut off that part of my subconscious, I no longer remember them, but the lustful thoughts pop in my mind everyday..its like the devil has a hold on my mind and snuck in through the back door.... I hate it. it been happening for about 5 weeks since we fell out, and I was too ashamed to mention it, and I will not ever contact this person because not only is he married, but is a pastor. I feel so ashamed.
its also not me, I am so averse to married people...I just want to be free of it. and I feel stupid for even thinking women can be friends with men( many times I have male friends and not lusted after them)
I think trauma has played a huge part in this, because he was quite manipulative at one point,
please pray I get out of this, I am feeling helpless but I am praying and turning my mind to overcome it. its hard but please pray for deliverance from this.
Thanks.
Please pray for my soul...
I am struggling with lust for a someone and its overwhelming. please dont judge me, I am already feeling raw and helpless...
I am not in any relationship with this man, we do not contact each other, but I had been having sexual dreams and I have at least stopped dreaming now, and actively shut off that part of my subconscious, I no longer remember them, but the lustful thoughts pop in my mind everyday..its like the devil has a hold on my mind and snuck in through the back door.... I hate it. it been happening for about 5 weeks since we fell out, and I was too ashamed to mention it, and I will not ever contact this person because not only is he married, but is a pastor. I feel so ashamed.
its also not me, I am so averse to married people...I just want to be free of it. and I feel stupid for even thinking women can be friends with men( many times I have male friends and not lusted after them)
I think trauma has played a huge part in this, because he was quite manipulative at one point,
please pray I get out of this, I am feeling helpless but I am praying and turning my mind to overcome it. its hard but please pray for deliverance from this.
Thanks.