Help

[Marymog]

Hello my brothers and sisters, if I can even claim you all as brothers and sisters, at this point today, that is.
I find myself in a bad way lately. I'm angry with God right now and am really hating on myself. I feel I cannot even claim the Name of Christ at this point. I have never stopped praying for His discernment so as to make wise choices yet, it seems I still make the wrong decisions anyway, even as I am praising Him for guiding me. I feel He has guided me right over a cliff, and cannot repent of my attitude right now. The tears will not stop, I do not know what to do next as I fear of making yet another foolish decision. I am the only one who makes the decisions in my home as, I am the only one here.
I beg your prayers as I just cannot get them out. I will not fill this post up with details but I will say I'm hanging by a thread here and do not know if I am even saved anymore. Much has happened over the last month, kept my chin up and let it not bother me as God makes all things good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Doubts have been assailing me left and right as I believed so strongly that He WAS guiding me.
My daily prayers are always, first and foremost, to order my steps and my attitude each and every day. Despair has gotten hold of me, especially today and I am so lost right now, and afraid that God has left me because of being Miss-led. My faith has taken a huge blow and I fear I might have never been chosen of Him to begin with. This is terrifying to me as there is nowhere else to go. So, I am BEGGING any and all on here to please pray for me as I just cannot right now. I am NOT looking for sympathy, by any means, just a lot of prayer. My spirits are lower than they have ever been and I must say, this life is Hell on Earth and all I want to do is leave it. It's lonely, "Christians" are so busy after services nobody has time to get to know anyone else. You all on here are my go to for prayer as, I do know several of you WILL pray for me. I love you all very much, thank you in advance for your prayers.
God Bless,
nancy

Hi Nancy,

I feel bad for you and what you are going thru. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Nancy]

Hi Nancy,

I feel bad for you and what you are going thru. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Thank you Mary,
I'm back on solid footing, only much more aware of my weaknesses. ❤
Thank you much for your prayers.
nancy

 

[JohnPaul]

Thank you Mary,
I'm back on solid footing, only much more aware of my weaknesses. ❤
Thank you much for your prayers.
nancy

Glad to hear that Nancy, the Devil sticks his tail any chance he gets.

 

[Nancy]

Glad to hear that Nancy, the Devil sticks his tail any chance he gets.

Yeah he does J.P. lightening fast too!

 

[farouk]

@JohnPaul Hoping the job is going better now (better than the last one...)

 

[JohnPaul]

@JohnPaul Hoping the job is going better now (better than the last one...)

I'll PM you on this @farouk.

 

[Angelina]

Hope you're doing okay Nancy. You can message me too if you want xox :

 

[Nancy]

Hope you're doing okay Nancy. You can message me too if you want xox :

Thank you Angelina. Things are working themselves out, in Gods time. It is comforting to know all of you on here have been praying for me as, there is no other thing in this world that I would ever want, prayer. ❤

 

[farouk]

Thank you Angelina. Things are working themselves out, in Gods time. It is comforting to know all of you on here have been praying for me as, there is no other thing in this world that I would ever want, prayer. ❤

Hebrews 7.25...

 

[Mayflower]

We all have got on this mindset before Nancy... I am so happy to hear you habe been feeling better. God will never leave nor forsake you...Writing is a good outlit. It is why I like to write my prayers out.

 

[Not me]

Hello my brothers and sisters, if I can even claim you all as brothers and sisters, at this point today, that is.
I find myself in a bad way lately. I'm angry with God right now and am really hating on myself. I feel I cannot even claim the Name of Christ at this point. I have never stopped praying for His discernment so as to make wise choices yet, it seems I still make the wrong decisions anyway, even as I am praising Him for guiding me. I feel He has guided me right over a cliff, and cannot repent of my attitude right now. The tears will not stop, I do not know what to do next as I fear of making yet another foolish decision. I am the only one who makes the decisions in my home as, I am the only one here.
I beg your prayers as I just cannot get them out. I will not fill this post up with details but I will say I'm hanging by a thread here and do not know if I am even saved anymore. Much has happened over the last month, kept my chin up and let it not bother me as God makes all things good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Doubts have been assailing me left and right as I believed so strongly that He WAS guiding me.
My daily prayers are always, first and foremost, to order my steps and my attitude each and every day. Despair has gotten hold of me, especially today and I am so lost right now, and afraid that God has left me because of being Miss-led. My faith has taken a huge blow and I fear I might have never been chosen of Him to begin with. This is terrifying to me as there is nowhere else to go. So, I am BEGGING any and all on here to please pray for me as I just cannot right now. I am NOT looking for sympathy, by any means, just a lot of prayer. My spirits are lower than they have ever been and I must say, this life is Hell on Earth and all I want to do is leave it. It's lonely, "Christians" are so busy after services nobody has time to get to know anyone else. You all on here are my go to for prayer as, I do know several of you WILL pray for me. I love you all very much, thank you in advance for your prayers.
God Bless,
nancy

Nancy if you would give me leave to speak boldly, please take my words before God and ask Him about them, for of you do freedom from yourself will be found.

God has not changed His mind concerning you.... All is well between you and God, His Son is there to cover and heal all. Having said that God is bringing you to a place where you despair even of life so you will not trust in anything of yourself but only in Him. You are in a great place of great increase stay the course... Die to self your own will, your own desires, your own wishes, put all your trust, hope and dreams on and in God, for if you learn the truth of your death in Christ freedom, from yourself and all the ramblings of your fallen nature will die and you will know freedom from yourself and trust no longer in anything of you but in God alone. Fear not, for God is absolutely leading you down this path, to bring you to the end of yourself, for great freedom and joy is waiting for you, only stay the course don’t shrink back, throw yourself into His arms and even if He slay you yet will you trust in Him.... For He is and will slay and bring to death all of your fallen nature that the Divine Nature that was brought to birth in you at the moment of salvation might have preeminence and rule in all things. But this cannot happen till you are brought to the end of yourself...But be most happy and blessed for you are in a great place of great increase, just stay the course and trust His love for you. For great and glorious things and freedom from your old man are being made real in your life, only stay the course.

Be most blessed as He brings you into Himself more and more deeply.

All my prayer, hopes and wishes of His increase, Not me

edit, just noticed this was an old thread, but the words are still true, be most blessed Nancy, as you grow in Him. Not me

 

[Nancy]

Nancy if you would give me leave to speak boldly, please take my words before God and ask Him about them, for of you do freedom from yourself will be found.

God has not changed His mind concerning you.... All is well between you and God, His Son is there to cover and heal all. Having said that God is bringing you to a place where you despair even of life so you will not trust in anything of yourself but only in Him. You are in a great place of great increase stay the course... Die to self your own will, your own desires, your own wishes, put all your trust, hope and dreams on and in God, for if you learn the truth of your death in Christ freedom, from yourself and all the ramblings of your fallen nature will die and you will know freedom from yourself and trust no longer in anything of you but in God alone. Fear not, for God is absolutely leading you down this path, to bring you to the end of yourself, for great freedom and joy is waiting for you, only stay the course don’t shrink back, throw yourself into His arms and even if He slay you yet will you trust in Him.... For He is and will slay and bring to death all of your fallen nature that the Divine Nature that was brought to birth in you at the moment of salvation might have preeminence and rule in all things. But this cannot happen till you are brought to the end of yourself...But be most happy and blessed for you are in a great place of great increase, just stay the course and trust His love for you. For great and glorious things and freedom from your old man are being made real in your life, only stay the course.

Be most blessed as He brings you into Himself more and more deeply.

All my prayer, hopes and wishes of His increase, Not me

edit, just noticed this was an old thread, but the words are still true, be most blessed Nancy, as you grow in Him. Not me

Thank you N.M.. very kind of you to reply ❤
All you say is correct, and with the encouragement and prayers of several wonderful brothers and sisters on here, I am out of that dark place. It happens around once or twice a year, not always as bad as this past one and even though I KNOW what needs to be done, I sometimes find that I just cannot yet, each time, coming out of the hole, I feel stronger and ashamed as well!! Ha! God is so goooood. :)
As a matter of fact, one of my daily prayers has always been "even if you slay me, I will trust you..." I remember that during these dry times but, just shake my head and wonder 'how did those men of God in the Bible do it'?? It's all good N.M.
Thank you much!
In Him,
nancy

 

[Not me]

Thank you N.M.. very kind of you to reply ❤
All you say is correct, and with the encouragement and prayers of several wonderful brothers and sisters on here, I am out of that dark place. It happens around once or twice a year, not always as bad as this past one and even though I KNOW what needs to be done, I sometimes find that I just cannot yet, each time, coming out of the hole, I feel stronger and ashamed as well!! Ha! God is so goooood. :)
As a matter of fact, one of my daily prayers has always been "even if you slay me, I will trust you..." I remember that during these dry times but, just shake my head and wonder 'how did those men of God in the Bible do it'?? It's all good N.M.
Thank you much!
In Him,
nancy

And I thank you for such a loving and in Christ response. For it blessed my heart so, for in it I can see the strength of your relationship with Him. Be most blessed as you work out your salvation. May He fill your heart with Himself beyond all your hopes and dreams..

In Christ, Not me

 

[Stan B]

As a matter of fact, one of my daily prayers has always been "even if you slay me, I will trust you..." I remember that during these dry times but, just shake my head and wonder 'how did those men of God in the Bible do it'?? It's all good N.M. nancy

My daily prayers focus upon thanksgiving for all the wonderful things God has blessed me with over the years. Then when bad times come, instead of concentrating upon the storm around me, I focus only upon all the blessings He has given me over the years. That tends to lighten the load.

 

[Nancy]

My daily prayers focus upon thanksgiving for all the wonderful things God has blessed me with over the years. Then when bad times come, instead of concentrating upon the storm around me, I focus only upon all the blessings He has given me over the years. That tends to lighten the load.

Yes, I believe that is key. He has never let me down, it is my own self that let's me down, ha! I am blessed beyond measure with all things, He has gotten me out of so many of my own messes...how can we ever doubt??!

 

[Nancy]

And I thank you for such a loving and in Christ response. For it blessed my heart so, for in it I can see the strength of your relationship with Him. Be most blessed as you work out your salvation. May He fill your heart with Himself beyond all your hopes and dreams..

In Christ, Not me

Thank you N.M.,
And likewise brother :)