For people like you, who think that there is nothing logical or real in faith I encourage you to look at the world from the different angle. Find yourself when you calm, and try to have in heart "I know nothing", or "I doubt of everything". Look at Reality! He is God. What do you need to be unbiased and be able to understand Reality? You need Reason. It is not an intellect. Intellect just a tool to calculate, compare (including judgment) and what else, maybe work with memory? Everyone has a guidance. It can be Reason, but it only for rare individuals. Another is an instinctive nature. You feel, you desire and think this is what you need and who you are. The smarter you are the more successfully you serve unreasonable instincts. They just tease you - "You need this, that, avoid those" by inducing feelings, emotions and desires. You can't escape on your own will. You need surrender to Reality. But if you think, your feelings - it is who you are, then you will never ask for help.