As far as being an "Insider" to the Holy Spirit I am. And so is everyone baptized in the Holy Spirit. As says the word.
You deny the things we profess. The things written in the Bible. Men worshipping their own creations and not able to see it. Jesus said it first;
Mark 8:21 KJVS
And he said unto them, How is it that ye do not understand?
1 Corinthians 2:14-15 KJVS
But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them , because they are spiritually discerned. [15] But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man.
John 9:40-41 KJVS
And some of the Pharisees which were with him heard these words, and said unto him, Are we blind also? [41] Jesus said unto them, If ye were blind, ye should have no sin: but now ye say, We see; therefore your sin remaineth.
Sin? Yes it is, sin to deny the gifts and calling of the Holy Spirit