Find out the truth about what? Whether or not Jesus is God? He said Himself that He is God outright, and this can be found in Jn. 8:58:
Moses said to God that the children of Israel will ask the name of the one who sent him, then asked what name shall he tell them: "Καὶ εἶπε Μωυσῆς πρὸς τὸν Θεὸν, ἰδοὺ ἐγὼ ἐξελεύσομαι πρὸς τοὺς υἱοὺς ᾿Ισραὴλ, καὶ ἐρῶ πρὸς αὐτοὺς, Θεὸς τῶν πατέρων ἡμῶν ἀπέσταλκέ με πρὸς ὑμᾶς: ἐρωτήσουσί με, τί ὄνομα αὐτῷ; τί ἐρῶ. πρὸς αὐτούς; Καὶ εἶπεν ὁ Θεὸς πρὸς Μωυσῆν, λέγων, ἐγώ εἰμι ὃ "Qu. καὶ εἶπεν, οὕτως ἐρεῖς τοῖς υἱοῖς Ἰσραὴλ, ὁ Ὧν ἀπέσταλκέ με πρὸς ὑμᾶς: "And
God said to Moses,
I AM THAT I AM: and he said, you shall say to the children of Israel,
I AM has sent me to you." (
Ex. 3:13-14)
Fast-forward to the scene of Jn. 8:58, where Jesus claimed to be eternal and to have existed before Abraham, but more importantly, He called himself by the ancient title ascribed only to God Himself: "...πρὶν (
before) Ἀβραὰμ (
Abraham) γενέσθαι ἐγὼ (
I) εἰμί (
AM)." The Pharisees knew exactly what Jesus meant by this. From their perspective, Jesus said specifically, “I am God.” How do we know this was their interpretation of His words? We know it from their reaction. They responded by attempting to stone Jesus for having claimed to be God (an act of blasphemy they considered worthy of death): "ἦραν (
picked) οὖν λίθους (
stones) ἵνα (
to) βάλωσιν (
throw) ἐπ' (
at) αὐτόν (
him): Ἰησοῦς δὲ ἐκρύβη καὶ ἐξῆλθεν ἐκ τοῦ ἱεροῦ." (
Jn. 8:59)
You're
choosing to
ignore Jesus explicitly stating that He's God, because you'd
rather believe that He isn't. If you didn't ignore it, then you'd have to reconcile that fact with verses like Mk. 10:18 and others, and you don't want to, or don't know how. Trinitarians know how, and we're trying to help you and others understand as well.