Hi there,
So I will keep it brief, so as not to weary you: my family went through a very trying time, all sorts of things, financially also and I began to rebel against the faith. I didn't know how to keep myself clean and fed my soul with anti-Christian music. It reached the point where I hated my salvation, and the Devil tempted me to compromise my word. This was all part of God's plan, as I would later find out; but I need to be clear that I still want to be reconciled to God, coming back to the Church was part of His plan too!
The point is that I had a grudge against the Church; no one asked me to be baptized and being spiritually vulnerable, the Devil was able to take advantage. It's just that I don't want that any more, I want the Church to forgive me, just as I forgive the Church; I don't think the Church could have done anything, given what happened to me and my family, and the Church continued to meet and welcome me, which I trusted. The Devil is only going to try and drive a wedge further between us, as long as I hold on to this idea that the Church could have done something - what could it do? Take my demonic music from me? I would have objected!
Anyway, you (probably) don't even know that I was in need of help and you pray as you need to for your own sake and those of the family around you, I'm not asking you to change your behaviour, I mean if someone is in need of baptism, God will tell you right? It's ultimately up to Him - that's the forgiveness I need! I'm glad you are willing even to listen to this; I don't hate you, not any more (I don't listen to evil music!), I may not ever have hated you, I might have just been tempted. I mean the hate that I had, I never expressed it against the Church. But the Devil has convinced me that he has possession of my hate and I am claiming the blood of the Lamb to get it back!
Just say a prayer "dear Jesus, this one is committed to you, Lord protect his soul, may forgiveness come from you if he needs it, in Your Name Amen"
Thanks.
So I will keep it brief, so as not to weary you: my family went through a very trying time, all sorts of things, financially also and I began to rebel against the faith. I didn't know how to keep myself clean and fed my soul with anti-Christian music. It reached the point where I hated my salvation, and the Devil tempted me to compromise my word. This was all part of God's plan, as I would later find out; but I need to be clear that I still want to be reconciled to God, coming back to the Church was part of His plan too!
The point is that I had a grudge against the Church; no one asked me to be baptized and being spiritually vulnerable, the Devil was able to take advantage. It's just that I don't want that any more, I want the Church to forgive me, just as I forgive the Church; I don't think the Church could have done anything, given what happened to me and my family, and the Church continued to meet and welcome me, which I trusted. The Devil is only going to try and drive a wedge further between us, as long as I hold on to this idea that the Church could have done something - what could it do? Take my demonic music from me? I would have objected!
Anyway, you (probably) don't even know that I was in need of help and you pray as you need to for your own sake and those of the family around you, I'm not asking you to change your behaviour, I mean if someone is in need of baptism, God will tell you right? It's ultimately up to Him - that's the forgiveness I need! I'm glad you are willing even to listen to this; I don't hate you, not any more (I don't listen to evil music!), I may not ever have hated you, I might have just been tempted. I mean the hate that I had, I never expressed it against the Church. But the Devil has convinced me that he has possession of my hate and I am claiming the blood of the Lamb to get it back!
Just say a prayer "dear Jesus, this one is committed to you, Lord protect his soul, may forgiveness come from you if he needs it, in Your Name Amen"
Thanks.
