Ok, now I see your issue. God has appointed Shepherds to lead and watch over His Sheep, but you reject Gods ways and go off on your own as a rouge sheep. Gods Word says that rouge sheep are a tasty meal for the hungry Lion, who roams around looking for rebellious rouge sheep.
I suspect you don't belong to the body of Christ by what you say, if your not a member of a local body of believers (Church) then your still outside of Christ. God gave us leaders and teachers because we are just Sheep, Sheep are quite dumb and venerable so we do need someone to protect us and teach us how to live.
If you think that a Sheep can simply read the Gospel and fluke the right interpretation, without relevant qualifications, then you believe that a street sweeper can perform brain surgery successfully. You have turned your back on the worlds greatest theologians and Bible scholars, and appointed yourself as the greatest of all. This is what every cult leader and self deluded expert does.
Can you please post the scriptures about rogue sheep? I'm not familiar with them and would like to see what they are saying.
Babes and children in the faith are normally only taught the fundamentals (milk of the word) until they grow and mature and themselves become teachers....as Paul admonished some "by now you ought to be teachers." God says this in His word:
Isa 28:9
Whom shall he teach knowledge? and whom shall he make to understand doctrine? them that are weaned from the milk, and drawn from the breasts.
And as the bible also teaches we are not to gather and have fellowship with those who we know who are false. There are so many who are false these days who have wandered off the right path of the true gospel. And even aside from false doctrine, the vast majority of churches are not adhering to the simplicity of Christ and do not believe in and allow the various parts of the Body to grow and exercise their spiritual senses.
In the absence of true shepherds many believers are on our own with the Lord and what He does is grow us up in ways we never could have done in the churches in their present state. There is this:
1Jo 2:27
As for you, the anointing you received from him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as his anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit—just as it has taught you, remain in him.
I have found the Lord to be a true and faithful Shepherd of my soul, leading and guiding and correcting and protecting as needed. As a dumb sheep I sure do need Him!
Havent' been able to follow this thread very closely at all, but I see by this post that you lean on tradition...?