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As a teenage Christian, I couldn't always buy books. So I looked up the authors online. I found sermons by the late Dr. Tim Keller on line. His apologetics were very helpful to me as a new Christian.
The calvinist flavor of his theology made sense to me too. I began to listen to more "New Calvinist" preachers like Mark Driscoll, Steve Brown, and John Piper.
They often said great things Id agree with today. But they also taught me the idea that Christianity was better if I stopped trying so hard. Stopped being religious. "Rested in God's grace and the finished work of the cross."
Christianity was not about works in any way, I concluded. It was about our being accepted by faith in Christ.
In my heart I wanted to live a life that pleased the Lord. But I often struggled with vanity, pride, and lust, not seeming to be able to shake them. Id listen to Steve Brown for comfort and Paul Washer for conviction.
I began repeating phrases from Brown like" the only way we stop sinning is if we realize that if we never stop sinning, God will still love us."
It comforted me. I knew I would never be able to shake the sin and bouts of anger in my life.
Then, I joined a Christian forum (not this one) and it was a war zone. One camp shouted the virtues of eternal security. The other warned of a loss of salvation from disobedience. I tired of being on the fence so I did something crazy....
I reread the Bible cover to cover with no assumptions about what it would teach. I was shocked to see so many verses aimed at believers about obedience, shipwrecked faith, and becoming dead indeed to sin. I was horrified that no church had ever mentioned hardly any of those verses.
My trust in sermon media, churches, devotionals, and Christian culture never recovered.
They could have told me we are supposed to overcome sin and how to do it. Instead they catered to my flesh instead of equipping me to crucify it. They could have told me that the fear of the Lord was a good thing. They could have said a lot of things that would have led me to the God pleasing ways and clear conscience I craved.
I only trust Scripture now. I saw a good church an hour away. But right now---my husband and I stay in Scripture daily, discussing it, praying it, practicing to obey Jesus. Yes, obey Jesus, not just believe.
We don't need popular sayings about the faith. We need Scripture in context. We need to hear it in our ears. Put the microwave devotional down. Pick up the Bible. Read it out loud, play it on audio. Preferably not a new translation.
The calvinist flavor of his theology made sense to me too. I began to listen to more "New Calvinist" preachers like Mark Driscoll, Steve Brown, and John Piper.
They often said great things Id agree with today. But they also taught me the idea that Christianity was better if I stopped trying so hard. Stopped being religious. "Rested in God's grace and the finished work of the cross."
Christianity was not about works in any way, I concluded. It was about our being accepted by faith in Christ.
In my heart I wanted to live a life that pleased the Lord. But I often struggled with vanity, pride, and lust, not seeming to be able to shake them. Id listen to Steve Brown for comfort and Paul Washer for conviction.
I began repeating phrases from Brown like" the only way we stop sinning is if we realize that if we never stop sinning, God will still love us."
It comforted me. I knew I would never be able to shake the sin and bouts of anger in my life.
Then, I joined a Christian forum (not this one) and it was a war zone. One camp shouted the virtues of eternal security. The other warned of a loss of salvation from disobedience. I tired of being on the fence so I did something crazy....
I reread the Bible cover to cover with no assumptions about what it would teach. I was shocked to see so many verses aimed at believers about obedience, shipwrecked faith, and becoming dead indeed to sin. I was horrified that no church had ever mentioned hardly any of those verses.
My trust in sermon media, churches, devotionals, and Christian culture never recovered.
They could have told me we are supposed to overcome sin and how to do it. Instead they catered to my flesh instead of equipping me to crucify it. They could have told me that the fear of the Lord was a good thing. They could have said a lot of things that would have led me to the God pleasing ways and clear conscience I craved.
I only trust Scripture now. I saw a good church an hour away. But right now---my husband and I stay in Scripture daily, discussing it, praying it, practicing to obey Jesus. Yes, obey Jesus, not just believe.
We don't need popular sayings about the faith. We need Scripture in context. We need to hear it in our ears. Put the microwave devotional down. Pick up the Bible. Read it out loud, play it on audio. Preferably not a new translation.