Now, do you agree then that we are only saved if we choose to lead lives characterized by obedience, or do you feel that we can be saved even if we choose NOT to lead lives characterized by obedience to God?
Repentance, metanoia, is, in my understanding, to repudiate all things old in favor of the truth of the Gospel, that in Jesus we can have live, through believing in His Name, receiving Him to share His resurrection. Even that is more than many know when they come to Christ.
We choose Him over our self.
He gives us Himself. Jesus in me. The mind of Christ, now renewing my mind, away from the mind of the flesh, to be as His mind.
This is a process that happens over the course of our lives. It will play out more visibly, less visibly, we will have all sorts of ideas about how well we are doing, or how well others are doing, generally speaking, these arise out of our perceptions of ourselves and others, and our opinions of what those perceptions might mean.
God promises, He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Christ Jesus. I believe every day He works in us, conforming us.
"Not resting, not hasting, and silent as light"
I think our life experience can be all over the map. I think our opinions of our selves and others can change from day to day, our perceptions vary, we come to understand things differently in the years to come. I know I've come to understand things much differently than I did when I was reborn.
We repudiate ourselves, and receive Jesus.
To make a long answer short, FINALLY, ;) what I think is this.
We made the choice to follow Jesus in our metanoia.
It plays out in our lives differently, depending on how well we overcome our flesh. When the new man overcomes the old man, the flesh, the world, all these that are against us, righteousness results. Faith which expresses itself through love.
When we are not overcoming, then the junk leaks through. It feels like rebellion, because it's the feeling of the flesh. It thinks like Old Man because its the thoughts of the old man. Sin.
This overcomes the world, our faith. The age. The sort of time we live in, characterized by being the children of light, in a wicked generation, renewing our minds, being conformed to Christ.
You may have a bad day, or month, or year, but salvation is from God, not from me. I believed God, and God counted that to me for righteousness. So God made me righteous, by rebirthing me in the death and resurrection of Jesus. So now I'm joined to Jesus, His life is my life, And He's got a project on His hands! But they are Good hands!
Much love!