I believe you're right. Drug users try to fill that empty void inside of them. Which is the God place within them and can only be occupied by God. Drugs wont fill it, riches wont fill it, I've heard many celebrities remark that, they had everything and still felt empty.
Jim Carrey, Alice Cooper, Brian Welch, Ted Nugent, Denzel Washington. A lot of them have found the Lord. I didnt mention Kanye because he fell in with Oprah.
I'm happy and content where I am. I'm not rich or influential or anything. Being retired is a financial challenge. I never did want to be rich. I was the youngest growing up so I got to hear all the older people's woes. And I noticed that Millionaires arent trouble free, they just have bigger financial problems and prolly more stress. And women have two huge complaints about men. One is, he wont keep a job and provide like he should. The second thing is, well he works too much and is always gone. Never home. So I made a plan for myself. Go into business for myself. When the work gets too much, I would either hire people or raise my prices because raising prices always slows down the work flow. That worked fairly well for me until she grew up and became materialistic on me. Then she wanted her cake and eat it too. She liked having me around at home but still she wanted me to do more of the work (so more of the money would wind up in her hands). So...that didnt end well but it was a good plan! I spoiled her and gave her too much money is what happened. Then when the economy kept sliding down...I'm tired of being broke Ed! I want a BMW ! Lol. Oh well.
But I digress. I am content where I am. My home is paid for. I dont miss any meals. The lights are still on. And that whole thing about being epileptic has become a thorn in my side. I smaoked weed as a young man and when I got about 35 or so, I wanted to quit smoking pot because I liked having a clear head. It's a young man thing and I wasnt a young man anymore. So I quit. I had an epileptic seizure 3 days later, my first in 18 years! SO I started smoking again, I guess those articles were true. I went back on medication too. 11 years later I'm like, man that was a fluke, I'm going to quit smoking weed again. It's should be safe because I'm on medication and havent been having seizures any more. So I quit smoking weed again and exactly 4 days later, I had another epileptic seizure at the wheel of my truck and had a big crash at 70mph. It almost killed. So it wasnt a fluke! So I started smoking weed again and still do. I'm retired early now because of the accident but I have to smoke weed and keep it in my system because I have to drive to to do errands. No one else is here to drive for me. The kids are grown, the wife left. But I have to keep weed in my system or I may surely seizure!
Last time it almost killed me! So even if I only use weed medicinally ow and dont smoke near as much as I used to, it still sort of sucks that I cant wisely choose to quit it like I'd rather do. Se the thorn in my side?
Got any advice for me?
(Plus, this was te vague one in scripture, the epileptic boy. This kind of spirit dont come out easy Jesus said, only with much prayer and fasting? Is it a spirit?
Should I treat this like an evil spirit?
Should I treat it like an Illness?
I've tried both and either I've fasted not enough or something. I still take the medication and I'm seizure free but that makes me sort of stuck with weed for now at least.
And what happens if I happen to be around when the mark comes out and I can't buy my medication any more?
This is perplexing to me.
