Needing to Hear

[Frank E. Schreiber]

I just had a total hip replacement. The doctors promised me I would be back to work in 3 months. They LIED!. They obviously seen that I have amazing insurance and they made their money.

This whole situation has TORN my marriage apart. I have been EXTREMELY tight with God since I wa either 13 or 14 . I begged him in prayer to let ME not him die on the cross as I loved him so much. All I read was the bible and I had and have a Great Deal of love for the Lord Our God. I mean I cried begging him to take me.

Now I'm 62. I know God has plans for me. I am almost totally disabled from the terrible job that the surgeon did on my hip. I can not work.

So as I always have been and always will be in Prayer with Our Lord, I ask him what he wants me to do? I need to make money but I cant do what I did. I want to do His work no matter what it is.

I feel abanded although I know that I'm just not hearing him. I am very sick. The hips cause an enormous amount of pain. I can barely walk.

BUT I STILL PRAY TO HIM TO ASK HIM FOR HELP AND GUIDE ME.

I need to know. I mean I really need to know as this has gone on far to long.

He knows that in my heart I only trust him. Humans are mostly a waste of time. I pray. For real?...24/7

I still am not hearing any direction. I am lost as what I should do.

I am going to lose all in the divorce as I trusted her fully with all finances so I get ZERO..

My heart aches because I cant hear the one SOLID THING IN MY LIFE. The Lord Our God.

My heart is broke and I feel so helpless....

I am not suicidal at all as I know that can't be forgiven.

But my heart feels crushed.

What do I need to do to hear him.

I've prayed my whole life.

In 1984 I was laying on a couch sleeping when I felt tornado style winds pulling me down. It was a life changing event.

I felt a hand pulling me down and cutting off all my air. I was reading the Bible non stop at that time. The hand kept pulling...

I cried out In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ I Rid You Satan!. I said I am Covered in the Blood of the Lord Jesus Christ and I say Satan BE GONE!

In that instant it left.

I've had a good life but in this recent times with my wife filing for divorce and my hip surgery gone wrong, I need God to just let me know he's there.

Ill live in a tent if I have to as long as I know the Lord is buy my side.

But he might have to help me with that tent because I gave that woman ALL financial control. Biggest mistake of my life.

I believe God will help though.

I just need to feel his comfort and love.

Sadly I'm not feeling it.

He knows to this day I would take his place on that cross...

Without a second of hesitation.

I just need to feel his love and support to get me throught this.

If he would drop a tent out of the sky on my front porch I would know ot wa him.....

Thank you for listening as I am broken.

Frank

 

[GISMYS_7]

Satan is on earth to kill and destroy don't allow that.
Psalm 103:1–5

• • 103 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name!
  • 2 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits,
  • 3 who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases,
  • 4 who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,

 

[bbyrd009]

i recognize that you may not be litigious, but if you dont sue the guy then he gets to mess up other victims

 

[Lambano]

I just need to feel his love and support to get me through this.

I love your heart. This is an honorable request. May God grant you what you have asked.

Thank you for listening as I am broken.

You're not alone, brother.

 

[Rita]

So sorry Frank , it is sometimes in these moments of silence and lack of guidance that the deepest work in us is actually being done …….but we don’t see it or feel it straight away.
How long ago did your marriage end ?
That in itself is a long journey of recovery ( been down that road )
I will pray into your situation, though many dark parts of my journey I have come to trust in Romans 8:28, not at the time, but looking back I have seen the Lord bring good out of everything xxxxxxxx
Rita

 

[Frank E. Schreiber]

The divorce is on going Rita. As soon as I the bread maker was disabled to the point of not being able to do what I did, She filed. After 23 years I realized I was only a paycheck, never a partner.

I am a very young 62 as my new doctor said I was around 48. I said no, 62. Check the chart. He said I was in great shape but he saw the hip pain. I dont have a limp or anything just constant pain.

I'm praying non stop for God to help me through this time of difficulty. I know he will. I just need to listen and keep my eyes open.

I would love to be in love with a woman that loved me for me. This last one obviously was there for a paycheck.

 

[Frank E. Schreiber]

I'm just lost and seeking advice from other Christians. I am FULLY a Believer and Fully saved, but just because of that doesnt mean that I'm a know it all with all the answers. To me Christianity is an evolving experience in My quest to better learn and follow Our Lord. I learn new things Daily. Not ONE DAY goes by where I dont learn.

But, then why am I not hearing him? I know he would never turn his back on me. I love the Lord Our God with every ounce of my being and I long to be with him in eternity.

But why am I deaf and blind to anything He's trying to show me.

I'm so confused and depressed.

Any advice would be truly appreciated.

Thanks

Frank

 

[Lambano]

Thank you for listening as I am broken.

I'm just lost and seeking advice from other Christians. I am FULLY a Believer and Fully saved, but just because of that doesnt mean that I'm a know it all with all the answers. To me Christianity is an evolving experience in My quest to better learn and follow Our Lord. I learn new things Daily. Not ONE DAY goes by where I dont learn.

But, then why am I not hearing him? I know he would never turn his back on me. I love the Lord Our God with every ounce of my being and I long to be with him in eternity.

But why am I deaf and blind to anything He's trying to show me.

I'm so confused and depressed.

Any advice would be truly appreciated.

Thanks

Frank

Even if you can't hear His voice, trust His heart.

 

[Cassandra]

I'm just lost and seeking advice from other Christians. I am FULLY a Believer and Fully saved, but just because of that doesnt mean that I'm a know it all with all the answers. To me Christianity is an evolving experience in My quest to better learn and follow Our Lord. I learn new things Daily. Not ONE DAY goes by where I dont learn.

But, then why am I not hearing him? I know he would never turn his back on me. I love the Lord Our God with every ounce of my being and I long to be with him in eternity.

But why am I deaf and blind to anything He's trying to show me.

I'm so confused and depressed.

Any advice would be truly appreciated.

Thanks

Frank

I was just reading through posts and saw yours that said "I m broken." Touched my heart, how said.
I am going to speak to you of things you can do. I am sure the membership here as well as myself will pray for you.

Here are a few things.
I would get a hold of Salvation Army . they may have someone who can help you fill out papers, etc.
You are 62. you can legally retire. You can draw on your SS benefits now. That will be some sort of income. i retired at 62.
You may be eligible for housing.
And food stamps. Please don't knock this folks. These programs are here for a reason.
If you have problems preparing food for your self--contact Meals on Wheels for one hot meal a day. Find Meals | Meals on Wheels America
Do you have a teaching hospital close by that may be able to help you with low cost Physical Therapy? Teaching hospitals are great!
If you don't have insurance, perhaps your state can assist you in that.

Once you get better, you can go back to school if you want . I looked at your Profile. It says you are from Blackshear. If that is Georgia, then you can take college classes free at 62. (Seniors in the US are eligible for free college classes)


11. Georgia
Georgia residents age 62 and above may take classes on a space-available basis for free at the state’s public colleges.

Seniors may choose to take classes for credit or continuing education, but they must apply through the regular admissions process at their school of choice. Many general education courses are offered online.

All of these things are available to you. Jesus loves you, and I believe that every one of these programs were begun by people who love the Lord, and want to benefit His people. All of them do good to his neighbor.

God bless you!!!!!♥♥♥♥

 

[Frank E. Schreiber]

Thank you Lambano.

I trust him as I always have. My trust and love never wavers. He has given me a very good life. Since July of this year though, it has been a very difficult road. All was fine until I said I couldn't go back to doing what I did. The paycheck was ripped from her hand.

Thank You Cassandra.

I have two great pensions and I just filed for Social Security. Once these come through I will be set. In the mean time it will be very difficult. When money started thinning She started paying her bills and not mine. I went from a 782 down to a 601 on my credit score.

Now I fully understand why God said never put your trust or faith in man as they will let you down. She let me down and threw me to the curb. It's sad that she treats me this way as I have always been on her side and stuck up for her. I always put her above myself. Any woman would be thrilled to have a man like me. I am an Old Fashioned Gentleman.

Her loss. It's far too late now.

As soon as Social Security kicks in that when I will make my move. I will plan it on a day she has to go to the Doctor and get all my stuff out of here. She will get back and see I am gone. She will then realize that she made a HUGE mistake.

To Bad.

 

[farouk]

Even if you can't hear His voice, trust His heart.

@Lambano It's good to read Scripture with the attitude of Samuel: "Speak; for thy servant heareth." (1 Samuel 3.10).

 

[Ziggy]

I was married to my ex for 9 years and 11 months. We were together for over 20 years total.
We went through a lot of hills and valleys together. He was a truck driver and me, a truck driver's wife.
Spent 24/7/365 over the road for 10 years.
In 2015 I was diagnosed with a blockage to my main artery. Walking had become increasingly difficult.
We didn't have health insurance and the cosy of the operation would of been $400,000.00
So we decided to get divorced so I would be able to get state insurance for all the hospital bills that would come in the near future.
Not long after I was diagnosed, he was diagnosed with the very same thing. Only his blockage was restricting blood flow to his organs.
He needed the surgery more than me. Time was of the essence.
So he got his surgery, took about 5 months to recover. With the little ability I had to get around, I managed to take care of him and the house.
Then he got better. He could go back to work.
All the while telling me, I need to get the operation because I was slowing him down.
I said, you going to stay home and take care of me for 5 months and do it all, while I lay on the sofa watching tv recovering and being waited on hand and foot?
He said, no. Work was more important. Had to pay the bills. But was very critical about how I handled the money. Even though I produced the bank statement every month to show exactly where every penny went.

I loved the guy. He was my world.

In 2017 Florida got hit with hurricane Irma. We were in the direct path of a catagory 5.
I beeged him to come home and help his mother and me. First time I ever really worried about the weather. I had a feeling this one was going to be bad.
He said, no. He didn't want to put the truck in a dangerous situation. It was, after all the money making machine.
It was at that point I realized... things had to change.
The next storm on the horizon was Maria. His mother begged me to drive her north to NH where she could stay with her other son.
So I packed up my mother-in-law, 10 cats and a dog in a KIA and drove 1600 miles.
I had asked my dad if I could stay at the old cottage we grew up in as kids in Maine.
He was a bit hesitant at first, but I explained the situation,
the house had been hit by trees to the roof and was leaking like a sieve. The property was under water from Irma and I had been without electricity and water for 3 weeks. And still my ex hadn't come home.

When I got to Maine, my ex was nice enough to buy me a 2005 dodge that had been in multiple accidents but still ran.
My 1996 Jeep Cherokee had run out of all hope of repairs.
So he drove up this Dodge and asked me, would you sign over the deed so I can do some repairs to the house?
I may need to replace it, and it would be easier than having to shuffle signatures back and forth.
I said, if you promise me, that if you ever sell the property, I get half. Talking about $12,000. here, not like a mansion. Just a campsite in the forest in the middle of a swamp.

Well I never did get that in writing.
I always thought that one day I would get back to Florida and we would find a way to put things back together and move forward.

I still love the guy.

Last fall our friend, he was our landscaper, found my ex, passed away from a heart attack.

I am going on 57 in April. I lost my husband, my property, recently my mother-in-law...
I still can't walk very well, and I still live in my father's house, with 8 cats that remain.
I lost the dog due to cancer and 2 cats went awol in the woods.

It's been a long road.
I never had that operation. It didn't work out that great for him.
It baught him a little time. And that's what we all have, a little time.

I'm writing this to let you know, I understand the pain.
I understand investing a part of your life in someone else only to be disappointed because they feel differently about you then you do them.
I understand the lack of mobility and other people's expectations when we can't fulfill them.
I hear you.

God does too.
He loves you. He knows the trials we face, the good times and the bad times.
He hears our frustrations and shares our pain.

He directs us to new places and new faces. New family and friends.
And this is where I have come to call this place my home.
Do we always agree? nope. What family does?
But we listen, and we give each other strength, and there is plenty of love to go around.

Your not alone in this life Brother.
God is good.
But you already know that.

HUGS

 

[Scott Downey]

God is perfecting your faith through trials
1 Peter 1 A Heavenly Inheritance

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.

6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, 7 that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ, 8 whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, 9 receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls.


Matthew 8, The Cost of Discipleship
18 And when Jesus saw great multitudes about Him, He gave a command to depart to the other side. 19 Then a certain scribe came and said to Him, “Teacher, I will follow You wherever You go.”

20 And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head.”

21 Then another of His disciples said to Him, “Lord, let me first go and bury my father.”

22 But Jesus said to him, “Follow Me, and let the dead bury their own dead.”

Wind and Wave Obey Jesus
23 Now when He got into a boat, His disciples followed Him. 24 And suddenly a great tempest arose on the sea, so that the boat was covered with the waves. But He was asleep. 25 Then His disciples came to Him and awoke Him, saying, “Lord, save us! We are perishing!”

26 But He said to them, “Why are you fearful, O you of little faith?” Then He arose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm. 27 So the men marveled, saying, “Who can this be, that even the winds and the sea obey Him?”

Genesis 32:9-11
9 Then Jacob said, “O God of my father Abraham and God of my father Isaac, the Lord who said to me, ‘Return to your country and to your family, and I will deal well with you’: 10 I am not worthy of the least of all the mercies and of all the truth which You have shown Your servant; for I crossed over this Jordan with my staff, and now I have become two companies. 11 Deliver me, I pray, from the hand of my brother, from the hand of Esau; for I fear him, lest he come and attack me and the mother with the children.

Acts 13:25
And as John was finishing his course, he said, ‘Who do you think I am? I am not He. But behold, there comes One after me, the sandals of whose feet I am not worthy to loose.’

Romans 8:18
From Suffering to Glory
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

1 Corinthians 15:9
For I am the least of the apostles, who am not worthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God.

1 Timothy 6:1
Honor Masters
Let as many bondservants as are under the yoke count their own masters worthy of all honor, so that the name of God and His doctrine may not be blasphemed.

Hebrews 11:30-40
By Faith They Overcame
30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell down after they were encircled for seven days. 31 By faith the harlot Rahab did not perish with those who [a]did not believe, when she had received the spies with peace.

32 And what more shall I say? For the time would fail me to tell of Gideon and Barak and Samson and Jephthah, also of David and Samuel and the prophets: 33 who through faith subdued kingdoms, worked righteousness, obtained promises, stopped the mouths of lions, 34 quenched the violence of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, became valiant in battle, turned to flight the armies of the aliens. 35 Women received their dead raised to life again.

Others were tortured, not accepting deliverance, that they might obtain a better resurrection. 36 Still others had trial of mockings and scourgings, yes, and of chains and imprisonment. 37 They were stoned, they were sawn in two, were tempted, were slain with the sword. They wandered about in sheepskins and goatskins, being destitute, afflicted, tormented— 38 of whom the world was not worthy. They wandered in deserts and mountains, in dens and caves of the earth.

39 And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, 40 God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.

 

[Aunty Jane]

I'm just lost and seeking advice from other Christians. I am FULLY a Believer and Fully saved, but just because of that doesnt mean that I'm a know it all with all the answers. To me Christianity is an evolving experience in My quest to better learn and follow Our Lord. I learn new things Daily. Not ONE DAY goes by where I dont learn.

But, then why am I not hearing him? I know he would never turn his back on me. I love the Lord Our God with every ounce of my being and I long to be with him in eternity.

But why am I deaf and blind to anything He's trying to show me.

I'm so confused and depressed.

Any advice would be truly appreciated.

Thanks

Frank

Very sad to read things like this happening to good people.....and after reading @Ziggy’s account it always takes me back to the story of Job in the Bible.

Job is there for a reason and the story behind the events reveals that our enemy satan is always looking for ways to destroy our faith. Job was an extreme case but according to 1 Corinthians 10:13...
“No temptation has come upon you except what is common to men. But God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear, but along with the temptation he will also make the way out so that you may be able to endure it.”

In Job’s case, God knew this man’s faith was rock solid and that he would cope with the severity of his trials and come out stronger than he was before. What makes Job’s story so amazing is that he was unaware the whole time of what was going on behind the scenes....and yet he kept his intgrity all the way through satan’s vicious assault on his faith in God.

Satan caused the death of his 10 children (imagine that staggering loss!) and then the loss of all his possessions....everything he valued in life was gone in a very short space of time.....but Job’s faith remained steadfast.

Next he suffered physically and was in so much pain that he couldn’t even speak for a whole week....but what the devil said in that instance is important....
“And Jehovah said to Satan: “Have you taken note of my servant Job? There is no one like him on the earth. He is an upright man of integrity, fearing God and shunning what is bad. He is still holding firmly to his integrity, even though you try to incite me against him to destroy him for no reason.” 4 But Satan answered Jehovah: “Skin for skin. A man will give everything that he has for his life.”

Did you notice that satan said “A man will give everything that he has for his life.” He didn’t say “Job will give everything that he has for his life” but “a man”....any man, that includes us.

.....and as if that wasn’t bad enough some so-called “comforters” came and accused him of deserving this punishment from God! Grievous loss...physical suffering...and demoralisation.

How could one man (and his wife) endure so much?......God would not let him go beyond his limits, which God already knew were very broad.

So, how do we know if our troubles are not from the same source and for the same reason? Is the devil behind the scenes accusing us of not having enough faith...if God will not allow us to endure more than we can bear......how will we answer the devil’s challenges?

Food for thought....

 

[michaelvpardo]

I just had a total hip replacement. The doctors promised me I would be back to work in 3 months. They LIED!. They obviously seen that I have amazing insurance and they made their money.

This whole situation has TORN my marriage apart. I have been EXTREMELY tight with God since I wa either 13 or 14 . I begged him in prayer to let ME not him die on the cross as I loved him so much. All I read was the bible and I had and have a Great Deal of love for the Lord Our God. I mean I cried begging him to take me.

Now I'm 62. I know God has plans for me. I am almost totally disabled from the terrible job that the surgeon did on my hip. I can not work.

So as I always have been and always will be in Prayer with Our Lord, I ask him what he wants me to do? I need to make money but I cant do what I did. I want to do His work no matter what it is.

I feel abanded although I know that I'm just not hearing him. I am very sick. The hips cause an enormous amount of pain. I can barely walk.

BUT I STILL PRAY TO HIM TO ASK HIM FOR HELP AND GUIDE ME.

I need to know. I mean I really need to know as this has gone on far to long.

He knows that in my heart I only trust him. Humans are mostly a waste of time. I pray. For real?...24/7

I still am not hearing any direction. I am lost as what I should do.

I am going to lose all in the divorce as I trusted her fully with all finances so I get ZERO..

My heart aches because I cant hear the one SOLID THING IN MY LIFE. The Lord Our God.

My heart is broke and I feel so helpless....

I am not suicidal at all as I know that can't be forgiven.

But my heart feels crushed.

What do I need to do to hear him.

I've prayed my whole life.

In 1984 I was laying on a couch sleeping when I felt tornado style winds pulling me down. It was a life changing event.

I felt a hand pulling me down and cutting off all my air. I was reading the Bible non stop at that time. The hand kept pulling...

I cried out In the name of the Lord Jesus Christ I Rid You Satan!. I said I am Covered in the Blood of the Lord Jesus Christ and I say Satan BE GONE!

In that instant it left.

I've had a good life but in this recent times with my wife filing for divorce and my hip surgery gone wrong, I need God to just let me know he's there.

Ill live in a tent if I have to as long as I know the Lord is buy my side.

But he might have to help me with that tent because I gave that woman ALL financial control. Biggest mistake of my life.

I believe God will help though.

I just need to feel his comfort and love.

Sadly I'm not feeling it.

He knows to this day I would take his place on that cross...

Without a second of hesitation.

I just need to feel his love and support to get me throught this.

If he would drop a tent out of the sky on my front porch I would know ot wa him.....

Thank you for listening as I am broken.

Frank

I don't want to cause you more grief, but I'm curious as to why you gave your financial stewardship to your wife?
Are you a member of a church assembly?
Were you baptized and did you make the great confession before men?
Did you ever acknowledge your sin before God and place your full trust in Him for your salvation?
Job was a man much like you. God called him a "righteous " servant, yet let him be tested more than most men ever are. Job was tested right up to chapter 42 of the book of Job, when He finally understood that his righteousness was nothing in the eyes of God.

Clearly the Lord is allowing you to be tested, but only you can search out the reason within you. I pray that the Lord's mercies restore your life and His grace restore your "fortunes". May you see that lesson He is trying to teach you through your ordeal, and may you understand that the manner in which you respond to these trials is more your testimony than that professed "closeness" of your relationship. Amen.