You'll never "get there" by being good enough. Salvation is by grace through faith in Christ. Abraham believed God and that belief in God was accounted to him as righteousness.
Romans 4:3-8
[3]For what saith the scripture? Abraham believed God, and it was counted unto him for righteousness.
[4]Now to him that worketh is the reward not reckoned of grace, but of debt.
[5]But to him that worketh not, but believeth on him that justifieth the ungodly, his faith is counted for righteousness.
[6]Even as David also describeth the blessedness of the man, unto whom God imputeth righteousness without works,
[7]Saying, Blessed are they whose iniquities are forgiven, and whose sins are covered.
[8]Blessed is the man to whom the Lord will not impute sin.
Your faith is in the wrong place. Faith in self and your own ability will not get you into the kingdom of God.
There is only one "work" that we need to do to be saved and that is, "believe." Have faith in God.
John 6:28-29
[28]Then said they unto him, What shall we do, that we might work the works of God?
[29]Jesus answered and said unto them, This is the work of God, that ye believe on him whom he hath sent.