Once these spiritual experiences become the dominating factor, it has gone wrong.
Very much in agreement here.
But should we also discount the special things God gives us? Why should we be closed to whatever God may do with us?
An experience can be transformational. For that person they create around them ideas that make the event the focus of everythin
Yes, that can happen. But that doesn't mean that something was or wasn't from God, or that it has to be that way.
I'd love to return to the state that God gave to me with a Word, where the flesh was literally made completely ineffectual. It was like it wasn't there. Only the Spirit. A beautiful life.
But then, I believe the reason God gave that to me was to increase my faith. I
am returning, have returned, for the most part, by the learning of faith.
I honestly did not think such a life could be for me, until God showed me by letting me live it. And then I knew. That knowledge is faith. I believed it to be true.
Now, I can tell you that if only you could have the same experience as me you too could trust Him that way. But that's not the reality as I see it.
For me this was, I think, remedial. Because I didn't learn or discover anything that wasn't written in the Bible. But I didn't believe it could be real. I could say, "Hey, I know what it's like to live completely sanctified!" Of course, that's only so far as I know. But the reality is, I think, that I'm so messed up that God had to use this extreme measure to accomplish in me what others can receive by singing Jesus Loves Me.
I still have trouble believing that God loves me as He does. It just seems so incredible! But it's true! And resting in that truth is the faith to live in the Spirit.
To the one who is able to simply believe the Word of God, that we have victory over sin, that the flesh is made powerless, that we remain in fellowship with God at all times, then there is no need for this experience to happen, they have the faith already!
Now, I could try to "sell" you on my experience, Hey, this is what happened to me, you should want it to happen to you too!" But I see no usefulness or even possiblity of that.
What was a massive display of power in my life I fear only sounds like boasting when I talk about it. "So that makes you a better person than me?" I know it doesn't.
Personally, I think that God did this because of what a mess I am/was! Surgery for the sick, the healthy don't need it.
It can't be about returning to what was. Paul wrote about forgetting what is behind, leaning into what is ahead.
As we try to attain to the resurrection. To be made conformable to Jesus' death. We've already joined Jesus in His death, now we need to be conformed to that death. We've joined Jesus in His resurrection, now we need to attain to the resurrection life.
No, the only usefulness to my experience that I can see is to promote faith in me, so that I will believe what God has said in His Word, and live accordingly. The just shall live by faith. We are walking by faith, not be sight. So everything is about producing the life of faith.
And the life of faith, in my thinking, this is the true elevated state that God is bringing all of us into, through a variety of different means.
Sin is subtle, and we easily delude ourselves. Greed. What I have is not enough, but these guys have so much more I need it. It is the dishonour of the blessing we have to God is our sin, and the demand this other would change everything. That is the lie. God is enough. He is the King of Kings. His rule is eternal and He listens to you.
This is one way to look at it, to demand from God something more. "Not until you bless me!" I think Jacob said, when he was called Israel. Though it was God's intent to do just that.
Yes, we can be envious of what others have. We can be greedy for more. I am greedy for more! I want more of God's life to be my life! I want it! I want it! Do I dishonor God when I want to see all vestiges of sin eradicated from my life?
Did I dishonor God when I "looked Him in the eye and said" I want
health, and You
know what I mean! You said to ask,
I'm asking! My body was unhealthy, my brain was unhealthy, and my heart was unhealthy, my life was stalled, worse. Did I dishonor what God had done so far? Or was this the fruit He was producing? My determination to receive more from Him?
All I know is that everything in my life turned upside down. Everything was shaken to the core. Everything was being destroyed. And in the midst of the process, when I thought I'd been through the worst, but had only really scratched the surface, God gave me a walk I could only dream of.
Unfortunately I have found when people get escatic experiences it puffs them up, and everyone else must have this because it changes everything.
The thing I want to express is that it changed everything
for me. But that doesn't mean the benefit is transferable. What is transferable is that I can point to the Scriptures with absolute conviction and say that it is by faith in Jesus that we have access into the grace in which we stand.
My one dissatisfaction in those days was that I had no way to share what had happened. There is a friend of mine whom I love who has similar problems as mine, and what could I tell him? "Well, God did it for me, I hope He does it for you too!" That didn't seem like much to me. Not enough. I wanted to be able to communicate - share - this life with others. I asked that He make it so I could. And that walk evaporated.
Now, I really only have my guess of what God's ultimate plan with me is. Well, to make my Christlike, but how?
Give me a taste. Let me know it's real.
I'm glad He did, because not long after that, the next stage of my restoration, was the beginning of my depression, a very deep pit, and I spent probably about the same length of time in agony wishing I was just dead.
Please don't get the idea I'm seeking anything other than to supply the context in which God worked. I love everything He's done for me, even if some of it wasn't easy.
But this "elevated walk", if you will, gave me something to hold on to. What I actually see it as, is a Gift of Faith. God gave me faith to overcome. At least, that's the best I can describe my thoughts on this.
It's really difficult to talk about all this. Clinical depression was the inevitable result of fixing my life. Mal-adaptive brain chemistry was being managed by the range of emotions such as fear and anger and shame and the like. Restoring my mental environment to peace and hope and security does not supply the serotonin and such that my brain is missing, and depression is the result. But it wasn't the result then. That was miraculous.
But now I know that by trusting in Jesus, all of this is mine - by faith. Freedom from sin. Freedom from the flesh. While I feel the physical effects of depression, even the emotional effects, yet I stand back from this, looking on, choosing to trust in Jesus, and am free from it, even while it is happening. And I know that Jesus can suspend any of the effects from my body, the flesh, at any time that He wants to.
I know that faith in Jesus opens us to receive from Him, and He is able to transcend everything. But He doesn't always.
I look back to a day about 20 years ago, when I prayed and said to God that I realized I wan't 100% for Him, and that I wanted to be. His immediate response was, I think, that He spoke plainly and directly into my mind, He told me something, and I didn't realize for a long time that this was the beginning. He began a process that day which would take decades before it would even be seen, much less to bare fruit.
But Jesus brings His peace, His reality, His victory. Now there is nothing deeper or more profound than this. This level of self awareness and seeing others is a true gift of maturity, so profound many say I am lying, until they see how I respond to their provocation. The trouble with sin is it lies that things are more complex and difficult than they are, where repentance is the key, being cleansed and purified the beginning of true freedom.
To my way of thinking, repentance is what begins our walk in Christ. Repentance is the forsaking of the flesh mind in the confession of my sin, and receiving the Mind of Christ.
Humilty is the watchword.
To be humble to receive without reservation whatever God puts into my life, whether agony, or ecstasy. Shall we not receive from Him adversity as well as blessing? I let Him be the judge of what is good for me. I feel certain that all out and childlike trust in Jesus is everying I need, all else comes from that.
Humilty is to allow God to do with others also as He sees fit. I don't have to be concerned, only to try to give a gift whenever I am able, so that is what I try to do. I'll offer such as I've received from Him, and if He wishes to use it to your benefit then praise Him!
Sorry for going so long! I've been reading your posts over and over, and thinking.
Much love!