Dark Place.

[Ritajanice]

Believe it or not, I feel depressed, I can still praise and speak about God on the forum....yet, I can’t seem to shift this bout of depression I seem to be in, I lost my dog 5 months ago, I can’t seem to get over that, plus I hardly see my youngest son now, as he has 2 businesses to run...he told me to get a hobby, I just can’t seem to get motivated..

It’s like I’ve lost my sense of purpose...I’ve never known what it is to be alone....I feel redundant..like no one needs me anymore....just wondering if anyone understands what I’m talking about?

I have never felt like this for many years....I don’t think this cold weather helps either, it’s so depressing...

 

[Rita]

So sorry xxx
I have felt the same way since I retired 15months ago , oh I can put on a front with people but inside the battle is a daily one - so I get it, even understand it as it’s a transition, but not sure I have any answers as to how to over come. Xxxx

 

[pepper]

Believe it or not, I feel depressed, I can still praise and speak about God on the forum....yet, I can’t seem to shift this bout of depression I seem to be in, I lost my dog 5 months ago, I can’t seem to get over that, plus I hardly see my youngest son now, as he has 2 businesses to run...he told me to get a hobby, I just can’t seem to get motivated..

It’s like I’ve lost my sense of purpose...I’ve never known what it is to be alone....I feel redundant..like no one needs me anymore....just wondering if anyone understands what I’m talking about?

I have never felt like this for many years....I don’t think this cold weather helps either, it’s so depressing...

Maybe rescue a homeless doggie from the local shelter?

Depression can also be a chemical and hormonal issue. Maybe have some test run to see what's up there?

Exercise gets the blood flowing and canift moods.

*Hugs*

 

[Ritajanice]

So sorry xxx
I have felt the same way since I retired 15months ago , oh I can put on a front with people but inside the battle is a daily one - so I get it, even understand it as it’s a transition, but not sure I have any answers as to how to over come. Xxxx

I can talk about God until the cows come home...I’m fine when I’m Glorifying his name...as soon as I stop doing that, Rita....I am back to being very low in spirit...I’ve even been crying to him about it, ( God) today...I am scared that it’s going to take me even deeper, never felt like this in years....only when I was in my late 30s....I was in a black hole then...I had ME and was bed ridden for nearly 3 years.

I just have been saying to God today..what is this all about.....oh well, maybe my faith is being tested once again ... I know he tests our faith..plus I know he wants me to depend on him 100%....i dunno....maybe I need to let go and just go with it, trust that God knows what he’s doing and I’m supposed to be where I’m at...thanks for help me.....I really think I’ve lost my sense of purpose...as I have always been there for everyone else...my son included....he’s a man, he’s not a baby....poor bloke..smothering him...he’s got his own life to lead...sorry I’m rambling.xx

 

[Ritajanice]

Maybe rescue a homeless doggie from the local shelter?

Depression can also be a chemical and hormonal issue. Maybe have some test run to see what's up there?

Exercise gets the blood flowing and canift moods.

*Hugs*

I still exercise peeper, I have my own gym equipment..even that’s been a struggle to be honest, I make myself do it.

I can’t get a dog...I would love a rescue...unfortunately my AF has returned, plus I’m to depressed to look after one....I’ve had blood tests...my kidneys aren’t working properly, the doctor said it’s not serious, I just need to keep up with the fluid intake...my serum calcium level is now stable...so I’m ok there.

I think I’ve lost my purpose, plus I’m still grieving for my dog..I had him from a puppy for 17 years.x

 

[pepper]

I still exercise peeper, I have my own gym equipment..even that’s been a struggle to be honest, I make myself do it.

I can’t get a dog...I would love a rescue...unfortunately my AF has returned, plus I’m to depressed to look after one....I’ve had blood tests...my kidneys aren’t working properly, the doctor said it’s not serious, I just need to keep up with the fluid intake...my serum calcium level is now stable...so I’m ok there.

I think I’ve lost my purpose, plus I’m still grieving for my dog..I had him from a puppy for 17 years.x

It's hard to lose a fur family member,I know.

Holding you in prayer.

 

[Ritajanice]

Thank you for reaching out. We know you are in agony, or you wouldn’t have appealed to us.

Might not help at all, but many devote Christians and even saints also experienced these dark mental moments.

Prayer? In a recent sermon, the pastor noted that Isaac prayed for 20 years until his wife finally conceived.

Find activities to help others?

Count your blessings: all the good things God has done for you? (The wonderful times with your dog?)

May God comfort you and show you how much He loves you.

Blessings.

Thank you Bob...your post spoke to my spirit ,where I’ve underlined and in bold...

 

[Ritajanice]

@Rita @pepper ...I needed to hear your tender / loving words...I keep denying myself love...why do I do that, do you know?

Yet I can receive God’s Love...maybe I’m over thinking things....I need to just let go of all this negative stuff.i think.

I’m so glad that I offloaded though, I feel so much better for doing that....I made myself vulnerable for once in my life...showed the real me...I hurt the same as everyone else....plus I struggle at times...a lot just lately.

 

[Ritajanice]

Rita do some prayers and bible reads with others . This world is very vexing .
I do bible reads with a sister daily and sometimes we get to do them with others too .
IT will HELP BIG TIME . beleive me . it will .

This is a woman’s only forum....I don’t need to hear your regurgitated nonsense in here as well...it’s bad enough that I have to read it all over the forum...

 

[DuckieLady]

Do you think you might just need time to mourn and focus on yourself for a little bit?

A little pick-me-up is a nice thing.

 

[Ritajanice]

Do you think you might just need time to mourn and focus on yourself for a little bit?

A little pick-me-up is a nice thing.

I think you might be right...thank you DL.

 

[Rita]

We go through different transitions but also must remember that grief and loss have an impact, and there is no time limit. We are human with a whole range of emotional responses. I don’t like the way I feel , but from past experiences know that the Lord will use it all in some way.

 

[Ritajanice]

Since I off loaded how I was feeling, I feel like a weight has been lifted...maybe that is what God wanted me to do, I feel better just reading the comments...tomorrow is another day...let’s not jump the gun ...will be interesting to see my mood when I wake up...x

 

[Debp]

Believe it or not, I feel depressed, I can still praise and speak about God on the forum....yet, I can’t seem to shift this bout of depression I seem to be in, I lost my dog 5 months ago, I can’t seem to get over that, plus I hardly see my youngest son now, as he has 2 businesses to run...he told me to get a hobby, I just can’t seem to get motivated..

It’s like I’ve lost my sense of purpose...I’ve never known what it is to be alone....I feel redundant..like no one needs me anymore....just wondering if anyone understands what I’m talking about?

I have never felt like this for many years....I don’t think this cold weather helps either, it’s so depressing...

Since I off loaded how I was feeling, I feel like a weight has been lifted...maybe that is what God wanted me to do, I feel better just reading the comments...tomorrow is another day...let’s not jump the gun ...will be interesting to see my mood when I wake up...x

Hi, glad you are feeling somewhat better.

How is your vitamin D level? Low vitamin D can cause depression and also fatigue.
It can be checked by a simple blood test. I do recall you stopped your vitamin D recently due to your high calcium serum level.

As long as you get enough vitamin K, that will help push the calcium into your bones, rather than going into soft tissue. You can talk with your doctor about it if your vitamin D levels are low. Vitamin D also helps with our immunity.

I take a daily vitamin D supplement of 2,000 units plus my multivitamin which has 1,000 units....my level of D is in the mid 40s. I get vitamin K in my diet and multivitamin.

 

[TLHKAJ]

I can talk about God until the cows come home...I’m fine when I’m Glorifying his name...as soon as I stop doing that, Rita....I am back to being very low in spirit...I’ve even been crying to him about it, ( God) today...I am scared that it’s going to take me even deeper, never felt like this in years....only when I was in my late 30s....I was in a black hole then...I had ME and was bed ridden for nearly 3 years.

I just have been saying to God today..what is this all about.....oh well, maybe my faith is being tested once again ... I know he tests our faith..plus I know he wants me to depend on him 100%....i dunno....maybe I need to let go and just go with it, trust that God knows what he’s doing and I’m supposed to be where I’m at...thanks for help me.....I really think I’ve lost my sense of purpose...as I have always been there for everyone else...my son included....he’s a man, he’s not a baby....poor bloke..smothering him...he’s got his own life to lead...sorry I’m rambling.xx

When our children are grown, it's time to move to the next phase. We still have ministry to those around us, keeping our relationship with God in a good place, growing in Him ...and He will lead where to go from there.

For me, I have a sense of direction, but am also in a period of waiting. Meanwhile, I have lots of animals to care for ...and I am preparing for a time when my children and grandchildren may need me in a different way. Things are changing in the world, and God has given me some instructions, direction, and a sense of purpose that will serve His kingdom in the times ahead. I'm not sure that's making sense.

I have a sense for what God's plan is, and I am also to be here to support and serve others God has placed in my life ....and although my children are grown and I have grandchildren now, and I don't see them all as much as I'd like, I am still here for them when they need or want to talk or visit, or I visit them.

Idk if you know this song, but I hope it blesses you, @Ritajanice.

Same song, live...

And as soon as I posted that song, this one came to mind.

Sister, sing to Him. Maybe you already do, but listen to the song above and sing it to Him. Make a playlist of songs that you can listen to throughout the day and sing to Him. It may be (and this is what I'm sensing to share) ....it may be that this is a time He is calling you into His presence in a more intimate way. I believe He is calling us all to this. The time is evil that we are living in, and we must know how to walk in His presence more than ever before. He is our Hiding Place .....the Secret Place of the Most High ....we are hidden with Christ in God ...abiding under the shadow of His wings. Amen! We can turn these dark times into an opportunity to pull in closer to His heart .....

Praying...

 

[TLHKAJ]

And also....

This is the key ...waiting on Him till we are fully satisfied by Him.
Tagging @Nancy as well ...

 

[Ritajanice]

Hi, glad you are feeling somewhat better.

How is your vitamin D level? Low vitamin D can cause depression and also fatigue.
It can be checked by a simple blood test. I do recall you stopped your vitamin D recently due to your high calcium serum level.

As long as you get enough vitamin K, that will help push the calcium into your bones, rather than going into soft tissue. You can talk with your doctor about it if your vitamin D levels are low. Vitamin D also helps with our immunity.

I take a daily vitamin D supplement of 2,000 units plus my multivitamin which has 1,000 units....my level of D is in the mid 40s. I get vitamin K in my diet and multivitamin.

I’m going to see a nutritionist tomorrow, thanks to my Son, ( he’s paying) ...I want to get my serum calcium level down , which it is at the moment, Jamie my endocrine nurse phoned me to say it’s stable...I now have to take this new medication for another 3 months...I would like to naturally , lower my own serum calcium level ,I don’t want to be on this new medication...I hate popping pills.....this is why I’m going to:see a nutritionist, plus she may be able to help with the AF,....I will let you know, on my other thread how the appointment goes..

My full blood count came back ok, not sure if they tested my vitamin D level.

My kidneys aren’t working properly, the doc said it wasn’t serious, I just need to continue drinking fluids, another blood test in 6 months.....I have also got another problem, which I’m not prepared to share publicly ...I will send you a pm..on what the problem is...thank you for your post.

 

[Ritajanice]

Let me tell you this....no one can relate to being completely alone , Living in a house, only those who are living in a house alone ,can relate to what I’m talking about.
Those who are completely alone “ physically “
I know that God indwells my spirit....God is not with me physically....

I never knew what it was like Living completely alone in a house...not until my dog passed..

It was a huge “ shock”....I am asking God to help me...I have to get my own health issues sorted first...I also think, that is another reason why I am depressed....

 

[TLHKAJ]

Can you get another pet, @Ritajanice? Maybe you could raise up a kitten or puppy ....or both.

(I do know what it's like to live alone in a house. I have done it at various times in my life.)

 

[Ritajanice]

Can you get another pet, @Ritajanice? Maybe you could raise up a kitten or puppy ....or both.

(I do know what it's like to live alone in a house. I have done it at various times in my life.)

No I can’t...my AF has returned, plus I have another health issue, that I’m not prepared to post about publicly.