Isn't fire a homosexual? So Aspen, why do you have so many unChristian friends?
"A friend of the world is the enemy of God."
This was a joke...right?
Did Jesus hang out with the religous or did He go right to the heart of the broken? Likewise, our "friends" are the non-believers...who
should Aspen be friends with? And on another level OP is obviously getting horrible theology and desperately needs real answers... For the record, your Bible quote is COMPLETELY out of phase and context.
Since you brought up James 4:4 and used it falsely, I will show the rest of the chapter - which you obviously haven't read or you would be trembling and in fear right now:
James 4:11-12
11 Brothers and sisters, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against a brother or sister[a] or judges them speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting in judgment on it. 12 There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?
Matthew 5:14
You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.
1 Corinthians 9:19-23
19 Though I am free and belong to no one, I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. 20 To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. 21
To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God’s law but am under Christ’s law), so as to win those not having the law. 22 To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. 23 I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.
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Fire-
Living a homosexual lifestyle is a sin. Being tempted is not a sin - giving in to the temptation is the sin.
As a straight man, I am tempted almost every minute of every day to sin with women...I wish it wasn't true but it is. I am completely broken and my thoughts are sometimes not what I want them to be. I have to fight non-stop to avoid the sin that I so desire. Your battle is EXACTLY the same - you are tempted by your desire. Yes, God allowed the desire to exist within you - He is permisive of ALL our sin or it wouldn't be here (Job 1 shows this clearly). Regardless, God said we have to fight against the sin within us and He sent His Son, Jesus, to cover our sins when we fail. But...that is not the end of the story: YOU MUST MAKE AN EFFORT!
If we never even attempt to resist the sin that plagues us, we are the people in Galatians 5:19-21 (for the record, that comprehensive list describe every human on the planet). It is in our desire to love Jesus (demonstrated by our resistance) that we find salvation:
Galatians 5:19-23
19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
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But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
John 14:15
If you love me, keep my commands.
I am saddened to know that you have such a tough burden. Know that you are not the only one and this place is brutal for all of us. SERIOUSLY consider different pastors because the ones you are listening to are not helping you with your burden.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06vxJ__sFTg