Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK

[truthquest]

Yes, I agree with that. Just because a church is "Pentecostal" doesn't mean it is spiritually safe. I'm reminded of the Rebecca Brown books again, and how she said demons can pray in tongues too, and openly curse the church in front of everyone if no one has the discerning of spirits.

Yes, that is true. They can use people as a vessel to do that. To openly curse people in the church without their knowing it.

 

[TLHKAJ]

TLH has been messaging me..... i took time to cool off . i really dont think anyone was at fault for it. i was triggered by some stuff but not one person as a whole. honestly for some of the posts that are more researchy i tend to space out as if i cannot or do not know how to read at all.
a lot of my life doesnt really make sense. i dont always see my life as matching the criteria. it can be very confusing. i feel tormented a lot.

To be honest, I have said for years, "I'm the weirdest survivor I know." I don't seem to fit into any one area or "script." And then to confirm it, a long time survivor friend in her 80's messaged me a couple of weeks ago and said that I am different than any survivor she has ever met. She gave some reasons to back what she said, but it was more of an acknowledgement that she has never met a survivor quite like me.

Anyway ....the spaced out thing is normal when alters slip forward to keep you from reading certain materials. That can happen for various reasons. Maybe they know it's a difficult date for you and don't want you overwhelmed.

*hugs*

I have experienced times when alters cushioned me and prevented me from viewing whole pages or chapters in a book (written for survivors) ...and some blocked me early on from listening to videos by Russ Dizdar bc they sensed the evil behind him.

 

[lilygrace]

To be honest, I have said for years, "I'm the weirdest survivor I know." I don't seem to fit into any one area or "script." And then to confirm it, a long survivor friend in her 80's messaged me a couple of weeks ago and said that I am different than any survivor she has ever met. She gave some reasons to back what she said, but it was more of an acknowledgement that she has never met a survivor quite like me.

Anyway ....the spaced out thing is normal when alters slip forward to keep you from reading certain materials. That can happen for various reasons. Maybe they know it's a difficult date for you and don't want you overwhelmed.

*hugs*

I have experienced times when alters cushioned me and prevented me from viewing whole pages or chapters in a book (written for survivors) ...and some blocked me early on from listening to videos by Russ Dizdar bc they sensed the evil behind him.

*hugs*
thats how it was. i couldnt even read or begin to read some things.

 

[TLHKAJ]

No, Aquino is the real threat.

Thankfully, he is no longer living to carry on his evil deeds. He was one of my main programmers. I had a Mickey Mouse plaque on my wall to remind me.

 

[truthquest]

*hugs*
thats how it was. i couldnt even read or begin to read some things.

It takes time to break through the barriers of our subconscious. I was told by a trusted friend that perhaps it is a blessing for that to happen so that we will not be too overwhelmed all at once and that when we are strong enough to handle it, we will begin to remember at a pace that we can handle.

 

[Shattered]

Thankfully, he is no longer living to carry on his evil deeds. He was one of my main programmers. I had a Mickey Mouse plaque on my wall to remind me.

Unfortunately the Temple of Set is going nowhere any time soon, sister. That's what I mean by "Aquino is the real threat."

 

[TLHKAJ]

*hugs*
thats how it was. i couldnt even read or begin to read some things.

Don't push yourself and don't feel bad for not being able to read certain content. Inside knows what they're doing.
*hugs*

 

[TLHKAJ]

Unfortunately the Temple of Set is going nowhere any time soon, sister. That's what I mean by "Aquino is the real threat."

Ahhh, I see ...and I agree.

 

[truthquest]

Thankfully, he is no longer living to carry on his evil deeds. He was one of my main programmers. I had a Mickey Mouse plaque on my wall to remind me.

They always liked to torment me by reminding me about what happened to Humpty Dumpty. How he had a great fall and could not be put back together again. Well, they were wrong.

 

[Shattered]

I had misgivings about posting on this forum, recognizing it as a grassy field infested with vipers before I registered to be closer to you and @Jostler , @TLHKAJ . The triggers are too much. I haven't slept in 48 hours because the adrenaline is flowing. I'm going away for a while.

 

[Hidden In Him]

Unfortunately the Temple of Set is going nowhere any time soon, sister. That's what I mean by "Aquino is the real threat."

I was wondering myself. Assumed he had been replaced long ago.

They always liked to torment me by reminding me about what happened to Humpty Dumpty. How he had a great fall and could not be put back together again. Well, they were wrong.

I like this quote. :)

 

[TLHKAJ]

I had misgivings about posting on this forum, recognizing it as a grassy field infested with vipers before I registered to be closer to you and @Jostler , @TLHKAJ . The triggers are too much. I haven't slept in 48 hours because the adrenaline is flowing. I'm going away for a while.

Do what you need to do, brother. Self care is very important.
Blessings to you!

 

[Hidden In Him]

I had misgivings about posting on this forum, recognizing it as a grassy field infested with vipers before I registered to be closer to you and @Jostler , @TLHKAJ . The triggers are too much. I haven't slept in 48 hours because the adrenaline is flowing. I'm going away for a while.

I'm sorry to hear that you have been triggered that much.

Taking a break is a pretty natural thing for everyone, though. I've had to do it several times, as I get "triggered" in my own ways (severe anger on occasion). I will pray tonight that you get some good sleep in the process.

Btw, when I mentioned there being a number of people who I thought were controlled in the community, it was pretty bad here for a while, even like up until last week. But it has since been dying down. I think the Spirit of God sort of turned things in the other direction, so I am seeing things change for the better lately; much better, including through conversations like this.

God bless, and hope I didn't offend you, or contribute to any of your anxieties,
Chris

 

[lilygrace]

im sorry if i triggeed anyone

 

[truthquest]

Why on earth go to so much trouble over one person? Granted, that's not the best way to put it, of course; more like why would they go through all that insidiousness just reinforce the programing of one person. But honestly that's the question that enters my mind. Is it because they are just that frightened of being exposed?

They are all about secrets and enforce their secrets being kept. They threaten those who they program, torture etc, who see how they operate, where they meet, what some of their secrets are, and those who may be able to identify them etc. They threaten these people with harm to their families and children. They threaten them with death, also death to look like a suicide, they blackmail some of these people. But I don't really believe that they are frightened of being exposed because it seems that most people will not believe that these things really happen. Still they don't want survivors talking about it.

People, including Christians, can't comprehend that kind of evil and don't want to even talk about it. There are survivors who trusted therapists and talked about what happened to them and they were misdiagnosed as having mental issues and put on psychotropic drugs. So survivors need to be aware of the danger of doing that. They have their people at every level of society including therapists. It is hard to find a therapist who can be trusted.

 

[lilygrace]

I had misgivings about posting on this forum, recognizing it as a grassy field infested with vipers before I registered to be closer to you and @Jostler , @TLHKAJ . The triggers are too much. I haven't slept in 48 hours because the adrenaline is flowing. I'm going away for a while.

i hope you get some proper rest.
i kind of feel like we are going through similar things. not exact but similar. but i hope you come back. i like having you here..... i should give myself a break too but sometimes have problems allowing it. i check on things a lot.

 

[TLHKAJ]

There are survivors who trusted therapists and talked about what happened to them and they were misdiagnosed as having mental issues and put on psychotropic drugs. So survivors need to be aware of the danger of doing that.

Yes, and unfortunately, cult therapists are abundant, so as to intercept (and handle) victims trying to get help and freedom.

 

[truthquest]

Yes, and unfortunately, cult therapists are abundant, so as to intercept (and handle) victims trying to get help and freedom.

Yes, that is the truth.

 

[lilygrace]

ill say one thing before i go to bed and maybe for a short time...... i had a therapist i tried recently. and she seemed rather adamant on offering to suggest that me and her work on repairing my family relationships.....of course i left.
i dream of having a supportive family but stuff felt off and i canceled therapy.

 

[TLHKAJ]

ill say one thing before i go to bed and maybe for a short time...... i had a therapist i tried recently. and she seemed rather adamant on offering to suggest that me and her work on repairing my family relationships.....of course i left.
i dream of having a supportive family but stuff felt off and i canceled therapy.

Very wise decision! If she has listened to you share what you've experienced and then disregards it, something is very fishy!