I had this vision one time in the last few months. It is a more personal thing, but stays with me. I was awake and I saw as if I was sitting across a pastor friend at a table. She was in her house. We used to be close, but something happened where I just reacted in a way I never had before. Now I’m blocked. She was sitting up straight and still, looking as though she was maybe indifferent and untrusting of me. Then suddenly she looked as if something dawned on her and she said “then I sinned against you.” And just broke down crying at the table. In all honesty, it was not her. I was out of line and disrespected boundaries. I lost a good friend out of anger.
I had a dream concerning this also in that I was on Facebook and I guess I tried out for the group I used to be part of/that she leads. On the top of the list was a very sweet friend of mine in the group. I had to keep going down the list to like 235 where I was. And one of the male leaders in the group typed out, “you can’t be part of the group according to the police. We wish you well.” It just made my heart drop. I care for them and lost a friendship I really cared about. I just want to believe that one day it can be restored despite my actions.
I had a dream concerning this also in that I was on Facebook and I guess I tried out for the group I used to be part of/that she leads. On the top of the list was a very sweet friend of mine in the group. I had to keep going down the list to like 235 where I was. And one of the male leaders in the group typed out, “you can’t be part of the group according to the police. We wish you well.” It just made my heart drop. I care for them and lost a friendship I really cared about. I just want to believe that one day it can be restored despite my actions.
