Thankyou everyone for your prayers. I have not cried today. I feel slightly better just getting this out. I thought I was going kinda crazy.
The Lord impressed upon my spirit to get out and stay out...it was something very strong and it felt unsettling, so I fled. There was a woman who had it in for me from day one, I saw how she baited others into bad reactions, she tried to bait me, so I had to back off from this demon in this woman.
but Thankyou for being here for me, friends, it means a lot, this is why my faith dwindled, I guess the only thing that kept me going was Him guiding me in my dreams because I was left in the dark from most of what was going on. He gave me a very good scripture in my dream, one I had never before read which summed it up nicely and made me feel at peace. psalm 37, verse 1 and 2.
The woman who had it in for me , she was very probably a " narcissist". (looked up the traits, wow) I witnessed her blatant unrepentence when she went all out to try and trip, and rip me up and bait me, I can see how some felt sorry for her . my pastor friend told me she did not mean to bully me... .things went down hill form there bc she did it again and again, and I snapped at her...he became frustrated with me bc I would not kiss her ass after that bc he obviously thought she was a "nice person: and I was wrong to suggest anything else and should of made her feel better. well I tried so many times, but it made her worse...she did it to so many others too. even others remarked how contentious she was. then when she got special treatment she improved...she reminded me of one of those supermodels that get up late and expects the airplane to wait until she arrives before it sets off lol and keeps everyone waiting.
I tried very hard to get along with her...and did witness people turning against me.
Some people are really just plain crazy makers. Glad I am out, but I am sorry it had to end with me blasting my pastor friend and falling out... I hated myself for that. I guess I just lost it by then.
xxxxx