Hello. This is my first time posting on the forum. I’m gonna go through my story, just so that way everything makes what I’m about to talk about. Thanks for listening!
So, I’m younger. Not very young but an older teenager, still in hs. I transferred schools, and it turned out to be awful, being relentless bullying, it was bad too, I won’t get into how bad it was. After I left the schooo, after things got really bad, where I was getting physically hurt, I reflected, and I’ve seen videos, shorts and Facebook reels, about how what we go through has a purpose- and now especially, I believe that. Now, I’m starting down my walk with god.
Right now, I’m struggling with anxiety, and fear, and worrying about the future. I know what to do, matter a fact I know exactly what to do, pray. But I have no motivation- at all. I want to ask god for guidance, what to do, with my current situation. So I have a couple questions. I read online that we can talk to god as a friend, is this true, and would he respond, or would we just feel his peace and presence? Also, how could I hear him? Would he respond to me in anyway if I asked him for guidance? I’m worrying about the future, and right now at least, I’m feeling like there’s no way out of it worrying about the future, right now I feel like even if I ask, and pray, I wouldn’t stop worrying, I know god is all seeing. Knowing and loving, but I can’t shake the feeling that even if I pray it won’t help with my anxiety. I know it will, but I don’t have any motivation. If been doing research, is this a spiritual attack, or is this normal? Also, I’d like to add… I started on this app callled through the word, I decided to start reading the word, and it’s a good app, it reads the Bible to you, and explains it. I ended up falling asleep to this, and in the middle of the night, I woke up, I remember something coming down on me, like something entered me, maybe it was just me… I’m not sure. I’d also like to say, I have prayed before, before a lot of this anxiety. I asked to see him in a dream, and once I was lucid dreaming, and I remember thinking lustful thoughts, and then all the sudden, I saw what I think was god, I saw a figure standing in front of light, and he looked the same way a traditional picture of god looks, and I remember feeling something come down on me, almost like being under a jet engine, almost like something was possibly going into me. I’m not sure what this all means.
Thank you listening. God bless
So, I’m younger. Not very young but an older teenager, still in hs. I transferred schools, and it turned out to be awful, being relentless bullying, it was bad too, I won’t get into how bad it was. After I left the schooo, after things got really bad, where I was getting physically hurt, I reflected, and I’ve seen videos, shorts and Facebook reels, about how what we go through has a purpose- and now especially, I believe that. Now, I’m starting down my walk with god.
Right now, I’m struggling with anxiety, and fear, and worrying about the future. I know what to do, matter a fact I know exactly what to do, pray. But I have no motivation- at all. I want to ask god for guidance, what to do, with my current situation. So I have a couple questions. I read online that we can talk to god as a friend, is this true, and would he respond, or would we just feel his peace and presence? Also, how could I hear him? Would he respond to me in anyway if I asked him for guidance? I’m worrying about the future, and right now at least, I’m feeling like there’s no way out of it worrying about the future, right now I feel like even if I ask, and pray, I wouldn’t stop worrying, I know god is all seeing. Knowing and loving, but I can’t shake the feeling that even if I pray it won’t help with my anxiety. I know it will, but I don’t have any motivation. If been doing research, is this a spiritual attack, or is this normal? Also, I’d like to add… I started on this app callled through the word, I decided to start reading the word, and it’s a good app, it reads the Bible to you, and explains it. I ended up falling asleep to this, and in the middle of the night, I woke up, I remember something coming down on me, like something entered me, maybe it was just me… I’m not sure. I’d also like to say, I have prayed before, before a lot of this anxiety. I asked to see him in a dream, and once I was lucid dreaming, and I remember thinking lustful thoughts, and then all the sudden, I saw what I think was god, I saw a figure standing in front of light, and he looked the same way a traditional picture of god looks, and I remember feeling something come down on me, almost like being under a jet engine, almost like something was possibly going into me. I’m not sure what this all means.
Thank you listening. God bless
