I hate myself, and hate being an atheist.

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Atheism is heartbreaking.
It's understandable though in a post Christian world where the Lord is not easily seen anymore. No wonder the Master said
"Wake up, and strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have not found your works complete in the sight of my God." Revelation 3:2
Any longer and there will be nothing left to strengthen!
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Atheism is heartbreaking.
*Existing is heartbreaking. I would probably still be this way if I 100% believed in God. God or no god, this world does not go away, and we have to deal with it no matter what. Don't assume all atheists are like this, some of them live more fulfilling lives than most religious people.

Please remember this; once upon a time, God thought of you. That's right. The creator of the universe and all life once thought of YOU! God wanted you and so he brought you into existence by creating you.

Life is tough, but that's because God is testing, refining, and shaping you for living forever in his kingdom. And rest assured, God has BIG plans for YOU!

Never feel that you're unimportant or that your life doesn't matter. Remember, God thought of YOU, created you, loves you, and has BIG plans for you in his kingdom!
Ahhhhh yes, the "God's plan" line. The god that put a forbidden tree right in front of two humans that were tricked by a talking snake, all while God knew what would happen before it happened. There are innocent people being killed right now, being captured and made to be slaves for decades, being placed in psych hospitals... what's their plan? Even if I'm "important" in God's eyes, I still have to wade through the garbage that is this terrible world that God made.

How easy is it saying "God has been looking out for me!" when you have everything you want. You are talking about an entity that does not show himself, all we have to go on is other people and religious texts. Like I've been saying, did God "choose" me or was I born because two people humped? What about people who just live the most whatever-standard life ever then dies? Where's the plan? Where's the "shaping them for his kingdom" thing? This doesn't make sense.
 

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*Existing is heartbreaking.

Feeling that way, why do you continue to exist? It’s not because you have to.

I would probably still be this way if I 100% believed in God.

“Probably” leaves some room for doubt.

God or no god, …

Since you mentioned God, we must at least consider it from his perspective.

… this world does not go away, …

That’s not God’s perspective. God’s perspective: He brought this world into existence and it is passing away.

… and we have to deal with it no matter what.

That’s right.

Don't assume all atheists are like this, some of them live more fulfilling lives than most religious people.

They have no hope beyond the grave. They either don’t know about the second death or don’t believe there is such a thing.
 

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Feeling that way, why do you continue to exist? It’s not because you have to.
I continue to exist because I was born. I - like everyone else - was given a life I did not ask for. In a sense, I have to exist, because if someone just checks out early, it hurts friends and family, and if there is an afterlife, they'll probably go to a bad one offing themselves.
“Probably” leaves some room for doubt.
God or no god, my view of the world would be the same. My mindset would be the same.
Since you mentioned God, we must at least consider it from his perspective.
...?? What?
That’s not God’s perspective. God’s perspective: He brought this world into existence and it is passing away.
Why did he make it at all?
They have no hope beyond the grave. They either don’t know about the second death or don’t believe there is such a thing.
So they go to a bad/no afterlife just for that?
 

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I continue to exist because I was born. I - like everyone else - was given a life I did not ask for. In a sense, I have to exist, because if someone just checks out early, it hurts friends and family, and if there is an afterlife, they'll probably go to a bad one offing themselves.

I’m glad to hear that you a good reason not to “off” yourself.

God or no god, my view of the world would be the same. My mindset would be the same.

You’ve moved from the inherent uncertainty of “probably” in your last post to certainty in this post. You know yourself better than I know you. I’ll take you at your word.

...?? What?

God expresses his perspective in the Bible. If we’re going to talk about him at all then we have to take into consideration what he says.

Why did he make it at all?

Love.

So they go to a bad/no afterlife just for that?

No. They are going to judgement, whether they‘re aware of it or deny it.
 
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I’m glad to hear that you a good reason not to “off” yourself.
I already tried that when I was 17, and I got caught in the act before I could finish. It did not go well. The psych hospital I was sent to just made me angrier. This is why I just run the clock out.

You’ve moved from the inherent uncertainty of “probably” in your last post to certainty in this post. You know yourself better than I know you. I’ll take you at your word.
Believing in God's existence is one thing, but being a Christian is something I'll never do. There is an insane amount of hypocrisy in the religion, people go to the Bible as "the pErfecT ruLeBooK" when it was written by men, not God, and I'll never believe that the Earth is 6000 years old and started by two people randomly placed in the jungle and tricked by talking snakes.

God expresses his perspective in the Bible. If we’re going to talk about him at all then we have to take into consideration what he says.
More like humanity expresses God's presumed perspective in the Bible. I could easily say, "in the beginning, man created god."

"Hey everyone, I'm God. I'm so full of love, that I'm gonna create this broken world full of failures and mistakes, I know what will happen before it happens, but I'll do it anyway. People will be raised Jewish, Muslim, etc. There will be all kinds of different backgrounds, but they better believe in me! No excuses! I'll send them to hell if they don't! I don't care how they were brought up! Because I'm just so loving, guys! Some people will be miserable, homeless, some may be kidnapped and used as slaves, but they still need to believe in me otherwise I'm gonna bop them one at judgement time!"

No. They are going to judgement, whether they‘re aware of it or deny it.
Given the details I've gotten, this God dude needs to look at himself.
 

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I already tried that when I was 17, and I got caught in the act before I could finish. It did not go well. The psych hospital I was sent to just made me angrier. This is why I just run the clock out.

Man wasn’t created just to run the clock out.

Believing in God's existence is one thing, but being a Christian is something I'll never do.

The baggage is heavy. Put it down and forget being a Christian. Could you imagine yourself ever being be like Jesus?

There is an insane amount of hypocrisy in the religion, people go to the Bible as "the pErfecT ruLeBooK" when it was written by men, not God, and I'll never believe that the Earth is 6000 years old and started by two people randomly placed in the jungle and tricked by talking snakes.


More like humanity expresses God's presumed perspective in the Bible. I could easily say, "in the beginning, man created god."


"Hey everyone, I'm God. I'm so full of love, that I'm gonna create this broken world full of failures and mistakes, I know what will happen before it happens, but I'll do it anyway. People will be raised Jewish, Muslim, etc. There will be all kinds of different backgrounds, but they better believe in me! No excuses! I'll send them to hell if they don't! I don't care how they were brought up! Because I'm just so loving, guys! Some people will be miserable, homeless, some may be kidnapped and used as slaves, but they still need to believe in me otherwise I'm gonna bop them one at judgement time!"


Given the details I've gotten, this God dude needs to look at himself.
 

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Man wasn’t created just to run the clock out.
Yeah, I've known that. Here's the catch: I don't care.

The baggage is heavy. Put it down and forget being a Christian. Could you imagine yourself ever being be like Jesus?
no.

I know I talk about horrible American schools quite a bit in this thread, and that is because the world is still kind of like that. Everything is a popularity contest, everything is about making yourself look good, everything is about picking "the best mates" while the others just have to sit at the sidelines. You say God created the world because... """"""""""love"""""""""", but then creates people he knows will go to hell even before they are born, which is setting them up to fail hard.
 

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Yeah, I've known that. Here's the catch: I don't care.


no.

I know I talk about horrible American schools quite a bit in this thread, and that is because the world is still kind of like that. Everything is a popularity contest, everything is about making yourself look good, everything is about picking "the best mates" while the others just have to sit at the sidelines. You say God created the world because... """"""""""love"""""""""", but then creates people he knows will go to hell even before they are born, which is setting them up to fail hard.

Steady as she goes then.
 

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Working. Thanks for asking.
Is that how you see yourself? The person I'm venting to? I appreciate your efforts, but there's been a lot of points that you avoided completely. I'm being told over and over how "God has this plan for me", what about everyone else? What about someone in Africa? I'm actually curious to how you even found your faith at all.
 

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Is that how you see yourself?

I work with neglected, abused and at risk children and their families.

The person I'm venting to? I appreciate your efforts, but there's been a lot of points that you avoided completely.

I don’t know what points you’re referring to but it really doesn’t matter. You’ve made it clear that you don’t care, and I thank you for that. Why would I discuss things with you that you don’t care about?

I'm being told over and over how "God has this plan for me", what about everyone else?

You aren’t being told that by me.

What about someone in Africa?

I’ve been to Africa twice. (Malawi, Mozambique, Zimbabwe and Kenya.) I’d like to go back sometime but I don’t see it happening anytime soon, if ever. The God whom you don’t believe exists is working there.

I'm actually curious to how you even found your faith at all.

Why are you curious about it? You’ve insisted that there is no possibility of you ever becoming a believer. What would you do if I discussed it with you? You’re looking for someone to argue with; I’m not.

”Don’t cast your pearls“ - Jesus of Nazareth
 

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@Cerraco, I didn’t anticipate ever speaking with you again. I was genuinely surprised last night when you wrote to me again.

My post #310 didn’t have anything to do with my conversation with you. I posted it solely with others in mind. It was intended at the time to be my final post in your thread.
 

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I work with neglected, abused and at risk children and their families.
And I believe you said that some of them were too broken to be saved?

I don’t know what points you’re referring to but it really doesn’t matter. You’ve made it clear that you don’t care, and I thank you for that. Why would I discuss things with you that you don’t care about?
No, I said I don't care about the "God doesn't want people running out the clock" thing. Kind of defeats the purpose to make a thread.

You aren’t being told that by me.
That part was more directed to some of the other posters. Funny how Christians pull out the "God's plan" line without explaining anything.

I’ve been to Africa twice. (Malawi, Mozambique, Zimbabwe and Kenya.) I’d like to go back sometime but I don’t see it happening anytime soon, if ever. The God whom you don’t believe exists is working there.
I admire the noble work you do, but seeing such a place would deepen my atheism. Why would create people that will have such torturous and short lives? What does that do objectively? What does that change? What's "God's plan" there?

Why are you curious about it? You’ve insisted that there is no possibility of you ever becoming a believer. What would you do if I discussed it with you? You’re looking for someone to argue with; I’m not.
I said that believing that God exists is one thing, but being a Christian specifically was the problem, due to the logical discrepancies in the religion and the Bible. I'm not asking how you found your faith to argue with you.
 

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And I believe you said that some of them were too broken to be saved?


No, I said I don't care about the "God doesn't want people running out the clock" thing. Kind of defeats the purpose to make a thread.


That part was more directed to some of the other posters. Funny how Christians pull out the "God's plan" line without explaining anything.


I admire the noble work you do, but seeing such a place would deepen my atheism. Why would create people that will have such torturous and short lives? What does that do objectively? What does that change? What's "God's plan" there?


I said that believing that God exists is one thing, but being a Christian specifically was the problem, due to the logical discrepancies in the religion and the Bible. I'm not asking how you found your faith to argue with you.

I haven’t been able to help you. The more that we’ve talked the deeper you’ve become entrenched in the hope (hopelessness) of atheism and hatred of yourself. As happened with Pharaoh, you’ve hardened your heart.

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I have no personal animosity toward you - far from it - but my business is the Messiah’s, and his business is to reconcile people with his / my God. You have no genuine interest in his / my business. You‘re adamantly resisting it. Having satisfied myself of that, my instruction from him in such instances is to move on.

If something changes in that regard and you want to discuss it with me, you know how to contact me; and I would welcome it.
 
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I haven’t been able to help you. The more that we’ve talked the deeper you’ve become entrenched in the hope (hopelessness) of atheism and hatred of yourself. As happened with Pharaoh, you’ve hardened your heart.
This is not a completely one-sided issue. I have made many points and have asked many questions that have gone completely skipped, and I'm not putting that issue on just you alone. As for this Pharaoh thing... huh? What..? God was the one who hardened the Pharaoh's heart for some strange reason. When you talk about helping me, what exactly do you mean? What specific part? Me becoming a Christian?

I have no personal animosity toward you - far from it - but my business is the Messiah’s, and his business is to reconcile people with his / my God. You have no genuine interest in his / my business. You‘re adamantly resisting it. Having satisfied myself of that, my instruction from him in such instances is to move on.
I would not have asked if I wasn't interested, and I have a feeling you're not telling me because you think I'll insult the answer, but yes, that is your business. I already believe in Christ's existence, and I understand his sacrifice. If believing those things are requirements for heaven, I can't be too far off.
 

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As for this Pharaoh thing... huh? What..? God was the one who hardened the Pharaoh's heart for some strange reason.
When you go back to the Book of Exodus and read this it makes more sense . . .

Exo 3:6-10 Moreover He said, "I am the God of your father—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob." And Moses hid his face, for he was afraid to look upon God. (7) And the LORD said: "I have surely seen the oppression of My people who are in Egypt, and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters, for I know their sorrows. (8) So I have come down to deliver them out of the hand of the Egyptians, and to bring them up from that land to a good and large land, to a land flowing with milk and honey, to the place of the Canaanites and the Hittites and the Amorites and the Perizzites and the Hivites and the Jebusites. (9) Now therefore, behold, the cry of the children of Israel has come to Me, and I have also seen the oppression with which the Egyptians oppress them. (10) Come now, therefore, and I will send you to Pharaoh that you may bring My people, the children of Israel, out of Egypt."
 

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This is not a completely one-sided issue. I have made many points and have asked many questions that have gone completely skipped, and I'm not putting that issue on just you alone. As for this Pharaoh thing... huh? What..? God was the one who hardened the Pharaoh's heart for some strange reason. When you talk about helping me, what exactly do you mean? What specific part? Me becoming a Christian?


I would not have asked if I wasn't interested, and I have a feeling you're not telling me because you think I'll insult the answer, but yes, that is your business. I already believe in Christ's existence, and I understand his sacrifice. If believing those things are requirements for heaven, I can't be too far off.

You’ve made it clear that you don’t want what I have to offer. Nothing has changed.